My guardian angelA Poem by Bad Wolf~
Where am I ?
It is dark and very cold. A hole? I don't know. I don't even remember my name,but I do remember the crimes which darkened it. So I guess that it's no shame if I don't remember my f*****g name. Who cares anyway? About me,my soul and feelings. Hell, I feel that there once was someone who did and was kind. But who? I don't remind. This darkness,this place...it's scaring me. Because of the light I remember here once used to be. But hell again, I don't remember what or who caused this light. I just know that if I didn't have the memory of this light.. The darkness would feel all right. But holy s**t .. What is this?! A flash crashing down on me. Something's running through my veins like electricity. My legs are feeling all wobbly. I'm falling...but not landing?! Where am I now? Hell? No,it's too bright here. Heaven? No idea.. My energy..it seems that's what I regain. But what doesn't come back is..my pain?! Suddenly there's another flash but a different kind- Bigger,Brighter.. Oh my- This is the moment when all my memories are coming back to me and when I see.. him?! Holy s**t ! How can this be?! He's here with me. He changed though- He looks stronger,brighter. Now,he's walking,no...floating towards me. But not like a ghost. No, he does it with the grace and beauty of an acient god. Our eyes meet, the shining blue of his eyes reminding me- Of this beautiful stone..How is it called? Oh right, Lapis Lazuli. He's calling my name.. 'Am I insane?!' 'No , you are not.' he replies with the voice of great kings. That's when I recognise that I'd been thinking aloud and when I discover.. His wings?! Now the knowledge's coming to me. The thing I'd been looking for what he's reminding me of and what his change is about... He turned to- 'An angel..' 'Not exactly, my dear.I'm your guardian angel' he replies with a smile on his lips. 'But,uh..I'm sure that this time I hadn't been thinking aloud.' 'That's right my love. I can read your minds.' he answers. I keep gazing at him so impressed. Suddenly I feel something hot and wet- Running down my cheeks. 'Don't...please' he says,coming closer to me and taking my face between his hands. Suddenly all my hidden emotions from the time since his leaving , are collapsing and spinning around. I start to feel dizzy..and pull him into my arms. He's holding me tight,stroking my hair. I look in his eyes. If I hadn't used to know him so well I wouldn't have recognised the hint of water in them and his gaze- Reflecting my own despair. 'Don't please..' I say ,like he just did earlier. ' I- I ... Flippin' norah!! I can't stand seeing you having to deal with all this crap!!' he's shouting in sadness. His words, becoming for my body a wanted caress. Now he takes my face between his hands again and starts wiping my tears away. ' You, love,...are one of the rare things in my f*****g life I won't ever regret.' he sighs. 'But I made mistakes since you left and you know I cried a lot and even -' I reply. 'Shh' he puts one finger on my lips. 'Damn.How can you dare to think like this of yourself? It's just normal how you've reacted and..flippin' norah! YOU made me so f*****g proud,you! Because you held on, no matter how often you hit rock bottom. And s**t...I'm sorry,I'm so sorry that I never told you often enough how proud I was when we'd been together in reality and that I wasn't able to tell you often enough - He stops for a second and suddenly pulls me against his chest, bends his head down,looked in my eyes and kisses my mouth. Tender. I reply it and bright light flashed all around us.. I feel all the darkness being taken away from my heart and soul. We've been pulled in the air, close to the moon. My guardian angel's holding me tight - And speaks in my mind. ' I have to go now. You belong to reality and me to heaven. I'll always protect you and especially I want you to remember that.. I loved you, I love you and I always will. Then he kisses my forehead and with another flash- He vanishes. My eyes open again and I'm looking around. What I'm hearing is a familiar sound. I'm lying on my bed.. And from the outside I'm hearing the meow-ing of my neighbour's cat. © 2014 Bad Wolf~ |
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Added on August 9, 2010 Last Updated on December 21, 2014 Tags: twisted, odd, love, supernatural, angel, guardian angel Author
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