ifA Poem by TerryMcDwhat is you never found loveif i never met you would i ever have met myself crawling in dark corners light covered by loss under the skill of retreat looking for cracks in the sun in a depth i never imagined if i never felt your breath would i still have air to churn in my lungs that sting for oxygen polluted or purified that i cannot separate and would not if i knew the combination would i trust that i have the silence to breathe and rest if i never said i love you would i be incapable to know the clockworks of love to be, to receive, to offer would i dream of what love should be, soft alarms seconds hanging succulent in a garden of bloom vines that drizzle warm dew a surreal momentary candle that flickers at a lurking secret i don’t want to uncover if i never felt your embrace your arms would i just know the lonely hours that move thick suffocating as i wait mornings another and then another would i ever wake in sun feathers that float on such a profound ache that is art is a canvas i can never bear to see how its grey brush strokes that colour dull and harsh what i’ve never done if i never saw the halo around
your eyes would i have ever been shown the fierce joining of passion anger compassion and hope all things that do not vibrate in each beat of my heart these side effects of humanity i have captured for no one in sullen ancient amber could i be a pickaxe player atonal in a minor key overwhelmed by amber’s symphony of permanence if i never saw the ages move through you would i count time in decades or years 20 years call for so much more navigation than 2 decades the walls and hull of this half-built boat i live in crumble if i kiss years or days but decades are a sinking overdose with precision-edged amorality that cuts through my veins like shards of unopened time if i never realised where you were would my unidentified life be written, then edited, then redacted certain my life shouldn’t be read any thoughts or dreams broken lost to blacked pages and years if i never saw the right to hold you would i escape in my wrong just one time that becomes forever becomes the time earth allows each of us would i relent against my nature tell you what you are tell you what i have missed would i scratch in my corner for a finger or a thread that leads me somewhere i have never seen but confess that i long for sometimes © 2013 TerryMcDAuthor's Note
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Added on September 26, 2013 Last Updated on September 26, 2013 Tags: poetry, free verse, love AuthorTerryMcDOttawa, Ontario, CanadaAboutI'm writer - poetry, short stories, scripts, journals. I've finally decided to call myself a writer rather than a guy who writes. In the past, I have won a couple of awards. I have self-published 5 po.. more..Writing
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