Asleep

entire chapter now. =D lots of mistakes, trust me I know. But some ideas, ways to expand and make the story better are always welcome =D and this chapter is longer than what most will be.

 

I try to open my eyes, it’s hard because I slept for so long they seemed to be glued shut. It's also hard because if I had the choice I would stay in my dream world, floating on air, or something like air, until the nightmares came. When the nightmares come I graciously embrace them with open arms becuase they assure me that despite everything, I am still alive. I finally force them open and look around my room. It’s the same as it always has been for twelve years, well obviously stuff has changed, but it’s the same room. I get up and walk to my living room, there is cinnamon cake sitting on the table to I get a piece and a glass of milk. I sit on the same couch that’s been there for those twelve years, and my mom walks in. it is way too quiet to be my house.  

Everyone looked as if they wanted to speak but were afraid to. My brother looked like he was excited but sorry at the same time, my mother looked weary, and my father looked emotionless. Finally my mother spoke up, and as she did I felt my world falling off the edge of a cliff, each moment getting worse until it hit the rock, got crushed beneath the waves and eventually hit the waters bottom with a quiet thud that would never be heard. She said “we are moving to New York” and in those few words cinnamon tasted like dirt, tears rose to the surface, my heart beat got irregular and pained, and my brain gave up. I ran to my room, shut the door, and gave up on life.

In the next few months life only got worse, but that part should just be a list of monochromatic events, lacking emotional words because by this time, my emotions were dead. I lost the family dog that my parents had before I was born; I lost another dog, which we had had for a long time, to cancer. My friends gave up on me, I moved, left my friends. My extended family whom we were supposedly moving to get closer with, abandoned us. I lost an aunt. I was a shell of my former self…

            Well first I suppose it’s important to know who I was. My name is Aidan, and yeah it sounds kinda  like a guy name, but it’s not and I like it. Music is something i've always had a passion for, and now is the only passion i have left. Once, I lived in North Carolina, and I loved to be outside, I was very outgoing, and everyone knew me, Now im in New York, outside is too cold, and no one knows me.

Well I suppose I look the same as before so I’ll describe that. I’m kinda short, I’m only five feet tall, and skinny I suppose. I have huge brown eyes that look like pools of mud. They are brown with dark black rings around them, and I always have shadows from sleepless night underneath them. My hair is curly and long, and as brown as my eyes. It hangs down to my lower back, which is the only part I like about it. I always wear a music note on a black chain around my neck and a necklace with a small vial of “faerie” dust. The faerie dust is sparkles, I mean obviously I don’t believe its actual faerie dust but I got it with my friend jasmine before I left North Carolina to remind me of what was.

I am supposed to start school tomorrow, and I had signed up for Morissette High School two weeks ago. Since I moved here at the beginning of the summer I got a job at a local book shop on the main street of the town of Morissette. The shop was called Literary Elements, and it contained mostly books with natural themes. I had read a couple of them before and they were decent enough. But having a job in this small town led to people asking my life story, so naturally they asked where I was going to attend school. There are two schools in this town, both are very well thought of, the other school is a public school, but quite prestigious. But when I tell someone which school I will be attending they always look at my eyes, then quickly down, and walk away. Once when this happened I decided to spy, as awful as it is, on the girl and the guy she was walking with. They left in such a hurry, it was really offensive. They sat down in an adorable wooden carved bench across the street from the shop where I worked and I quietly crept around them to hide in a hydrangea bush directly behind the bench. I got close enough to see what they looked like. She was really quite tall and very lean, I thought she was pretty in a very blunt kind of way, her cheeks were very high and defined and she had short hair that curved on those cheeks like the outer petals of a rose curve around the inner petals, and her hair was a fiery red. Her eyes were so light blue they were almost grey. He, well let’s just say he was gorgeous. He has black hair that ended about level with his ear lobes, and perfectly straight too. He was a little taller than her, and just as lean, but looked as if he could pick up a car on command. And if I thought her eyes were pretty his were soul-shatteringly so. They were the deepest green I’ve ever seen, they were so green, I thought I had stepped in to a forest and fallen asleep, and I wasn’t even looking his straight in the eye! They both wore plain jeans, sneakers, and matching shirts, but I couldn’t read what their shirts said. I assumed they were dating by the intimate way that sat.  They were whispering about eyes so naturally I pushed myself a little farther in the bush so I could decipher their words.

Her words were audible to be first “I didn’t think they were letting any new students in this year!” she sounded on the edge of a mental breakdown that would explode any moment.

He spoke while touching her hand in a clear effort to calm her down “me either, but obviously they are, and you have to admit you see the, uhm…qualities in her that are the same in the rest of us.”

So obviously they were going to school with me, but why would they care that I’m going there?

She spoke even more forcefully, so forcefully in fact that I thought she knew I was behind her and was directing her anger at me “I see them!, but I thought the dean said we were done with new people until we graduate. And look at her eyes, they are so wise, she most know that she is different!”

He agreed with a look of confusion “but she doesn’t seem to know yet or else she would know how to mask her emotions, and her True eye color. Her True color is really quite beautiful actually”

This made the girl roll her eyes and sigh, she mumbled something and it sound more like profanities from another world than English. But I decided it  was time for me to leave so I could clock out of my shift and get to the high school. I am a musician and I planned on joining the marching band. I had met with the band director this morning and he invited me to come join tonight and start learning the show. I played mellophone for marching band and French horn for concert band. I was really nervous about meeting people tonight so I went home and changed into my usual style of clothing. Skinny jeans and a purple unbuttoned, flannel, plaid shirt with a lime green camisole underneath, and my ever present jewelry. Since I assumed I would be learning drill tonight I put on my most comfortable sneakers. Then I got into my car and left.

With the helpful aid of my GPS, since I still didn’t know quite where the school was, I arrived their safely, but not exactly on time. I was late only because I had seriously considered turning around and hiding under my bed. I had been thinking of that couples conversation and wondering what they meant by my True eye color, the way they said it clearly stated that True eye color was a proper noun. Anyways the whole drive to the school I nervously tapped my favorite song on my steering wheel, I tapped Bach’s Brandenburg Concerto the entire way, and was somewhat calmer than I was leaving my house. I arrived and pulled into the parking lot nearest the field where I could see instrument cases galore. I got my prized mellophone out of my trunk and pulled it carefully from its case, and began the longest and most terrifying walk of my life.

As I got closer to where everyone was warming up I recognized the couple from earlier and realized that their matching shirts said Morissette Marching Dragons. My heart kind dropped to the grass and I hoped they didn’t recognize me… they did. I saw it in their eyes, and they exchanged a very careful look that I barely caught. As I trudged towards the director I could feel people staring.

I heard whispers of True eye colors but also a lot about my height as well. So what if I was less than five feet tall?! I was perfectly okay with it. Anyways, I looked carefully out to the people standing there and regretted it immediately because everyone was starting at me. I walked up to the director and asked what he would like me to do.

He told me, “Stand between Nolan and Ari”

I said “kay” and looked over at the two guys he was pointing at, they both played mellophone, and one was the red-head’s boyfriend. I stepped cautiously to stand between them. The boy I recognized looked down at me like you would a bunny rabbit are afraid will run away, and said “Hey I’m Ari, and that’s Nolan, he’s not very friendly but I’m sure you’ve realized this”

I laughed a little, thinking it was a joke, but I looked over at Nolan who just snorted, glared at Ari and I, and turned away. From what I could see he was decent looking at least, easily taller than me, with blonde hair and eyes the color of charcoal.  I looked back up at Ari and then I saw his eyes straightforward.

I don’t know how long I started at his eyes, they were the most wonderful thing I’ve ever seen. I could see an ocean floating there, and feel the life that they breathed. I realize that he was staring at my eyes too, and I quickly looked down, my eyes are so disgusting in comparison.

Before practice started I was introduced to the band by Mr. Hayden, the director, and by introduced I mean my name was quickly muttered. Practice started and Mr. Hayden told me to follow them and try to mark my spots when we stopped between sets. It was confusing being thrown into it like this. I got the music towards the end of practice and told Mr. Hayden that I would come into the band room to work on it during a study hall. I was walking back to my car when I past Ari sucking face with the redhead. As I looked up he saw my eyes, and pulled away from her, he grabbed her hand and pulled her over to me and with the most manners I’ve ever seen in a teenage male introduced us by saying “Aidan, this is Neria”

The girl could only manage a smirk so I quickly turned around and went to my car. I threw myself inside and was about the close the door when Ari caught the door and looked at me with those eyes…

“I’m sorry about her, she can be a bit…abrasive sometimes” he said

“it’s okay I don’t expect anyone to like me on my first day anyways” I replied

“well… I like you, er I mean, you seem nice, uhm I mean you are nice”.. he stammered

“thanks…I think” I said with the awkwardness of a turtle stuck on its shell.

He smiled with those eyes when he said, “do you want some company for the ride home, I heard you lived on Yevrah Road, I live on that road too, it’s pretty far out and it does get lonely, I’d gladly ride with you.”

So I agreed, since he lived there anyways and he went around to the passenger side door. When he got in he looked at me with those stupid, gorgeous eyes, and I couldn’t help but look back, and I swear I heard him say “wow” I wondered what was so special about my eyes that always made his stutter and stare.

While I drove he talked and it made me relax a little. When we got to the road we lived on I invited him over to my house, since he had been so kind to me. He accepted and we went up to my room to watch a movie, it was an intensely scary movie, well supposed to be but I didn’t even pay attention enough to learn the title, we talked the entire night and soon it was two am.

The time startled me and I almost screamed “holy crap its two in the morning!”

He looked scared, “if I come home this last my mother will kill me”

So I said “if you want you can just sleep here and sneak out in the morning”

He agreed and said “only if it’s okay with you”

And obviously it was. So I laid out a comforter on the floor for myself and gave him my bed, but he refused so we both ended up on the floor out of pure stubbornness. But about five in the morning I woke up and I was in his arms! I was so startled I woke him up as well, but when he realized what had happened he only grabbed on tighter, I stammered “what about Neria”

His only reply “what about her”

I questioned him “aren’t you two dating?”

“no, it was an open type relationship”

This kind of made me want to slap him “and is that what you want with me?!”

He said “at first, yes, but then I saw your eyes and their True color, and I think I’d like to be more with you”

I could only lay in his arms and stare and that’s when he grabbed me and kissed me, and we had only known each other for a few hours, but I loved it entirely too much. I hated to end it but I needed to know about True eye colors so I interrogated him,

“what is the True eye color you keep- I mean are talking about”

He smiled at me and said “I know you were behind us in the bush today”

I could feel myself blushing terribly but I still waited for an answer

His only reply, “you’ll see at school tomorrow”

We lay like we were until my alarm went off at 5:45, and then I had to get up to shower. I got in the shower and got dressed in my bathroom, I feel the need to mention I changed in my own bathroom because I don’t want to be thought of as a hooker, anyways this is where my flashback ends and now I’m getting ready to go back out to Ari.

My hair is still wet and hanging loosely at my back but my brush was in my room so I have to go with it all stringy to go back to Ari.  I walk into my room, feeling really low about myself; he was so gorgeous sitting there on my bed. I grabbed my brush of my dresser and sat down next to him. I went to start brushing me hair but he grabbed the brush from me and began to brush it for me. I could feel the tension in my shoulders release; I loved having my hair touched. He brushed it for at least ten minutes and I was falling asleep when I felt his arms catch me and hold on like I was his lifeline. We sat there for another few minutes, then I decided to speak “Uhm I guess I should run you home so you can change for school, if you want I can wait outside and give you a ride to school”
 His reply, “if you want you can come inside, it’s only fair that you see my house since I saw yours.”

 I stammered “okay” and we snuck out of my room, outside, and into my car.  I pulled out of my driveway as quickly as I could and asked which way to go, and I had to go further up the drive oh about 3 houses. He definitely could have snuck into his house, which means he just wanted to stay with me! I still couldn’t believe it. I pulled into the driveway and saw that his house was very similar to mine, in the fact that it was a two story house, but not obnoxiously huge. I followed him inside and awkwardly up the stairs to what I assumed was his room. He opened the door and I saw that his room was quite neat for a teenager’s, and I was kind of ashamed of mine. I went in and sat next to him on his bed then after kissing me lightly on the cheek he went to a closet grabbed a few things and left the room. He came back into the room a few minutes later with different clothes on, and he looked much better than my sloppy jeans, flannel shirt (unbuttoned of course) and the camisole underneath. I was wearing a pair of converse sneakers that I’ve had since sixth grade. He was wearing a pair of clearly designer jeans, a red v-neck shirt and a brown jacket, and it worked well for him. He sat on the bed and grabbed my hand and I looked in his eyes again. This time it was different, than at the marching band practice. I looked up in his deep green eyes, and I swore I could see a glimmer of something else, a blurry pattern of colors I’ve never seen before, and as quickly as I saw them, they left. I snapped out of my trance and so did he, but not without commenting on my eyes.      “Your eyes are the most amazing thing I’ve ever experienced” he looked completely awed.    “You keep commenting on my eyes, but I don’t see what is so special about mud” I said

     “You will learn that your eyes are much more than mud, they are Truly beautiful” he replied But I still couldn’t understand what was so special about my eyes, but I trusted him. I don’t know why because I’ve only known him for about 12 hours, but I felt so attached to him in a deep way. While I was in thought he pulled my hand and led me back to my car. He opened my door for me and I climbed in, as soon as he was in we left. We got to the school at 7:30 and classes start in fifteen minutes. I went into the office and they gave me my schedule, lock, and told me where my locker was. It was on the first floor and Ari’s was on the second so we split up after a short glance into each other’s eyes. I went to my locker and found that it was stocked with all my textbooks I would need, along with a note from the Head Mistress, Mrs. Ishnu, welcoming me to the school and informing me that since I joined so late, they provided my books for me. I was organizing my books when I was grabbed by my hips by Ari, he playfully pushed me up against my locker and was holding me , when I looked around him and saw Neria, glaring at me with hate in her eyes. Ari saw what I was staring at and turned around he whispered to me that he would be right back and walked over to her. I could see that she was angry because she slammed her books to the ground, then slammed her locker shut, and kicked her locker with her perfect little flat shoes. I must admit, i enjoyed her temper tantrum. But within a minute Ari was back at my locker holding on to my hand. We compared schedules and I noticed that of the eight periods I had total, I had 5 of them with Ari, I was happy because I would know someone. I had AP composition with him second period, music theory with him 3 period, Spanish three fifth period, advanced choir seventh period, and advanced band with him eighth period. Lunch was in between fifth and sixth so we would be together then too. The bell rang so I was forced to leave him for my government class, but not without a look of reassurance and trust. Before class started he had programmed his number in my cell phone and told me that if I felt upset or needed him to text him and he would meet me in the back hall within five minutes. As I left him I held onto my vial of "faerie" dust, it felt warm so I looked down, and it appeared to no longer be dust but liquid, it rocked smoothly in wave in the little vial. It was so weird that it would look so different now.

I went to first period feeling pretty confident that this school would be great; I mean I already had met Ari, and felt so connected to him. Since I was with Ari all morning I didn’t really look at the students of Morissette High, but in first period, I did. I looked around and people were either plain, or beautiful, but never ugly, and everyone had incredible eyes. Whatever color they were, they were so amazing and wise, but never brown, not one person had the terrible mud colored eyes I do. I didn’t really pay attention to the class but it was only the first day so I didn’t miss much.
    Second period came and when I went to my locker between classes I found Ari waiting for me and I eagerly took his hand and let him lead me to second period. We sat in the row next to the window and towards the back, and I could feel him combing through my hair with his fingers, clearly he had caught on that I liked that. I almost feel asleep but I knew better than to do that on the first day of school. Third period past basically the same way and fourth period I had to leave him again for gym. I was pretty good at most sports but today we just had to choose lockers. I quickly discovered that Neria was in my class and chose the locker farthest from hers; I could tell she didn’t like me. Just as I was heading towards the door back to the gym she gently grabbed my hand and pulled me to the back corner of the locker room.
She looked at me with those cold grey eyes, and said, “you think you are so amazing coming in her with your oh I’m new and modest look, well let me tell you that you aren’t, and Ari will be done with you soon enough” she continued with a series of profanities before threatening me, she said “if you cross me once more, I will make your life hell on earth”
This girl scared me to tears and I ran to the nearest stall, I considered texting Ari, but I didn’t want to be too pathetic. Then the door was slammed open and Neria was standing there. She glared with those eyes and said
“I changed my mind, consider your life hell. NOW” and she grabbed me by my arm and dug her nails into my skin. She pulled me out of the stall then pushed me against the wall, hurting my back a lot, and I’m sure she left a massive bruise she would have kept going but then some nameless hero came to my rescue unknowingly, and Neria let go. Then I had to text Ari, I texted “back hall” I left through a back door and waited for him I crept into an unused doorway and curled into a ball and sobbed. This girl truly despised me. He arrived shortly after I did and pulled my close to him and wrapped his arms so tight around me I felt like he was squeezing my troubles away. He wiped my eyes with his jacket sleeve then put his arm around my back, this caused me so much pain I jumped and sobbed again. He pulled up the back of my shirt and saw the bruise that took up a third of my back and was a scary purple color. He looked concerned and asked, “did Neria do this?” all I could do was nod and suddenly those sweet eyes turned cold with anger. He pulled my shirt back down and let me lay against across his lap, even in the pain I was experiencing I felt perfectly okay with him.Which I definitely don't understand, we are perfect strangers! but I feel as if i've known him forever, something about those eyes... I felt a soul-deep connection to him anyways but when I looked in his eyes it was even more than that, it was like destiny has stiched us together at the beginning of time. We didn’t talk for a while and then the bell rang, we ended up staying there for all of fifth period and lunch, but I was okay with that. I felt safe with him, for once.

 

 

Author's Note

i know there is a lot of mistakes but i want to know how to improve story line so help is appreciated

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[Taylor Marie Cecilia]

okay so I wrote a lot more. but my computer decided to hate me so i'm going to have to re-write what I had =[. it will be up here eventually. and feel free to comment. i know this is really rough right now its just kind of a general outline type.