Self Worth

please see 'note for reviewers'.

 

It’s just this damnable self worth

damaged ego trying to make

everything OK by showing

that I have done something

with my life after all -

"Here it is Plain as day

You see, I did amount to something."

And it’s all ‘non-sense’ -

yet my whole being gets sucked

into trying to prove itself.

　

Still a child lost

in an adult body

desperate

for recognition.

　

　

Author's Note

I have a condition called Avoidant Personality Disorder. http://tjavpd.wordpress.com/
Basically, it is social phobia with the consequences of this, and the reasons for it, thrown in.
One of the reasons for it is a negative sense of self worth. Worth-less. This is deep rooted and cannot be easily rectified. One way to combat it is to just be aware of it and not let trying to over compensate for it get the better of me. Which it has the last few days. Now I have seen the ugly monster I may be able to calm it down a bit.