Insomnia

Nothing remotely good, nothing witty, no satire. no sarcasm, just a pathetic spill of emotions...

Eyelids heavier than a thousand suns,

Eyes bloodshot,

the pure white marbled with streaks of red.

Pupils dilated,

eyes more black than brown...

 

A yawn shatters the silence

And the silence becomes deafening.

I close my eyes

lay my head on the pillow

I toss

I turn

sheet on

sheet off

two pillows

one pillow

too cold too hot.

 

Minutes pass

then hours

the notion of sleep turns from a hope

into a vain prayer.

Another sleepless night

Sanity slipping away

reflections in the mirror twisting and shaping themselves

shadows dancing like ballerinas across the walls

wisps of smoke waltzing through the air

dancing to the heartbeat

which is louder than anything I have ever heard.

 

Always something to worry about

Always someone else's problems to distract

lying on the bed, finally still

my skin is crawling

bedbugs burrow and chew their way through me.

I have been forgotten by the sandman

yet again.

 

Hours pass by

the shadows never tire of dancing

the first few rays of light leak through the open window

shades of gray and yellow.

One more night that I've spent

dreaming of a good night's sleep.

Dreams for an insomniac

God's cruel joke.

One more sleepless night

and I end it

Forever...

Reviews

[Spilled Her Guts in Cur..]

"Always something to worry about//Always someone else's problems to distract"

I can feel this. Very honest verse. I read this and can remember spending a lot of nights 'dreaming' of sleep and being alone with thoughts for too long to drive me to distraction. I like your writing style in this because it's written to be like what it's describing, i think. sharp, real and...yeah i don't know how to describe it but it feels like what you're describing if that makes sense :S

-Jackie

[lAcEy_LoO's Poems Site]

I call fell this... I hate sleepless night!!! But i do catch up on my reading!!! Great job

[Jane Doe]

'I close my eyes

lay my head on the pillow

I toss

I turn

sheet on

sheet off

two pillows

one pillow

too cold too hot.'

I love these lines! Being a raving insomniac I can so relate to this piece. It is very well written and perfectly describes the insanity that accompanies the inability to fall asleep no matter how exhausted you are! Great writing!