Removing The Wool

On the edge of thoughts

Feet hanging over yesterday

Arms raised up for tomorrow to save me

While today seems to tick

At no particular pace at all

And sentimental moods

Sweep over me

Like the waves of a tsunami

Destroying my facade

Of All I need is me

And I watch the walls of simplicity

Get overly complicated

And extroverted tendencies die

While I take introspection's hand

And we analyze

Every miniscule strand of my existence

Wondering why I distance my heart from me

Afraid to see myself as lonely

I turn up stones

And hide behind ruins

Refusing to grind again

Letting love blow in the wind

My lips sealed like a dam

And wont spew forth

How scared I am

As sands in the hour glass fall down

And to my left and my right

There is only my shadow

A hollowed reflection of myself

Casting forth darkness

My alter ego

Does not exist

Creating me only

I watch the waves toss my thoughts in the air

And I want you here

But who are you

And who I am to be

Memories are tricky

Have you remembering only when the sun did shine

Playing mental checkers with your own mind

Skipping over the places where tears slid down

And cheeks burned hot with anger

As you loved a stranger you only thought you knew

Decisions made on whim

With slim pickings and odds even slimmer

Than Jack Sprat

Now you won't chose at all

Afraid to risk

Your heart enclosed in a clinched fist

So tight

You slit wrists in your mind

When you don't live and die

To life

But where do you go from nowhere

And how did you get there in the first place

Recounting the mistakes

Learning but not advancing far enough

From the emotional rape of bad choices

And hearing too many voices in your head

That makes alone your friend

But in the end the reflection of self is always seen

And what is wrong with wanting to love and be loved

Eventually from your own eyes the wool must be removed