Mirror's Truth

 

 

 

I can't get pass this little girl in me   

Neglected from youth

Pain perpetuated in the present

And when I look in the mirror

I don't see the woman I am

Just the little girl

That wanted to be protected

Kept safe from grown men hands

The little girl that wanted to be chosen

Over her mother's lovers that tried to love her

Touching in her in the no-no spots

Offering indecent proposals

Sleeping with locked bedroom doors

I am that little girl still flinching

At sudden anger from men

Wondering will fists follow hurtful words

For my mom it always did.

I also grew to be hit by fist

And I can't get past this hurt little girl

Neglected by parents that tried to find themselves

In everything but her

Choosing alcohol and drugs over the hugs

They withheld

When I look at me I see years of damage done

How do you undo harm?

When you grow to recycle events in your life

That keep the hurt bottled up inside

And you carry shame

With your pain

As if you made your childhood the way it was

When I look the mirror I still see

That hurt little girl dwelling in me

Looking back at me

Wanting me to be her security

Wanting me to set her free

But how can I when the hurt little girl is Me