Deaf Heart

U say Eye'll be fine

Just tell it to my heart

Because it doesn't understand

The way it is cracking

And I hear u when U

Say he wasn't worth it

But who r u to take

Away what was because

Of what isn't

And if I love him

Then it is settled

But see my heart hears

The logical tone in which u speak

And shuts off sound

And tunes u out

And my mind believes

God is always at work

My soul knows what u mean 2 say

And my spirit is willing 2 adhere 2

But it is my heart

That clogs ears

And closes eyes

And prays for some type

Of relief from the constant

Beat that comes

Aching each time

And they say an adult heart

Beats at least 70 times per minute

When one is at rest

Being that I find no rest now

After strenuous exercise times that by 2..5

And that means my heart aches

175 times Per minute

Catching my breath is exhausting

NOW I ask you again

Make my heart understand

Because right now it just doesn't

And I hear you telling me how

I should walk with my shoulders back

Head held high

Dry my eyes

And better will come along

Hell he said the same thing

But my heart wants to understand

Why it aches 10,500 times an hour

And 252,000 times a day

And each ache only wants his touch

And tell it to my heart

When we toss

Then turn

Then wake

Kick off covers

Convincing myself it is jus hot

Turn over again

Can't find a comfortable spot

Turn again

Get up get a drink

Maybe that will help

Look at the phone

Hold it close

Praying 4 a ring @ 2 in the morning

Tossing till dawn

With no sleep

Heart leaking me on sheets

Tell it 2 my heart

It can't eat

Stomach in knots all day

Every time it beats

We say his name

More knots in the way

Food stuck in the back of my throat

as I chew

like a baby eating peas

nothing tastes good to me

and I grieve

and you say let it be done

damn him look what he did

but I only remember the love

the way even now that makes me smile

so make my heart understand

as it sulks and whines

and sobs

day and night searching for his voice

searching 4 his touch

and yeah I know we'll pull thru

but damn it right now

we are bruised and hurting

balled up in fetal position

lacking attention

and not needing you to mention

how if he loved me

he would be here now

I question enough on my own

Dont need you telling me

How he is feeding me lies

And there must be something more to goodbye

Because all u do is turn the knife

And my heart and I are goin thru enough

And it is a shame I can't share wit u objectively

With out you trying to direct me

I don't need a cheer

A hug will do just fine

Can u just hold me while I cry and die

U can't make it alright

And I know your love 4 me makes u wanna try

But My heart just doesn't want to hear it

So unless you can make heart understand

Just hold my hand till I can stand on my own again

You know that I will

Just give a listening ear

Until my heart is ready to hear you out

Right now we are in too much pain

Remember I am flinching 252,000 times a day

Each time I blink

Tears flow down cheeks

And each time you speak

I jus need u holding me

Consoling me

Until I can think

With out the pain

Of longing

So just tell it to my heart

Remember the ears are clogged

And the eyes refuse to see

unless it is him returning 2 me

allow me the time I need to heal

there is no pill

there is no remedy

that makes letting go of love easy

Reviews

[Joseph - Michael]

You know, your title got my attention for several reasons and I just had to read it anyway. And I must say that it sure is very hard to read, not only that it's very long, but it's about getting closer to the love and breaking away from the love as well. And it sure does hurt like hell.

Anyway, it's way too long to be as known as the poetry, but it's all still good here...