My Sweetest Downfall

After the Flight...

 

 

I knew better than 2 fly 

I have tried to so many times

And this is how it ends

Me on the ground wings broken

Like heart

Can't beat

Against pavement

Broken and mangled

Waiting 4 healing

To come 2 me

And I always love the way it feels

When one comes and rebuilds my wings

And I followed you willingly

Took flight

With my eyes closed

You promised to keep me safe

Shelter me from ache

And said I could borrow ur wings

If mine couldn't make the trip

And for a while

We did dart to and fro

I felt the grass of the Serengeti

Bend as we passed over hand n hand

Ur touch made my wings brilliant

And many colors came thru us

Like rainbow winds we blew

Changing all we touched

Even when they couldn't see

That they were witnessing love

Blooming and growing in you n me

Or maybe jus me

 

And I flew and danced

on clouds wit you

and blue

was only a color

and tears were only reflections

of beauty from within

as we danced on wind

and slid down sun rays

making heaven tangible

in the here and now

and I bowed to what I felt

2 what I found in you

and no one else

 everything tasted  so lovely

we made the angels jealous

because we created a celestial aerie

all our own

greater than the beauty of ancient Rome

and Egyptian thrones

couldn't match the home I found

in your arms

I rested in your words

And for a minute I felt so safe

I forgot

That I make the life of Oedipus

Seem like a comedy

With happy endings in every punch line

I forgot I wasn't born to fly

Only 2 climb out of wreckage

Half-dead

And half alive

Needing to be revived

But on your wings

I tried

Forgetting

And believing

And I passed the sun

I counted the stars below

Looking down on them like flowers

In the field below my dreams

Awakened symphonies

Heightened rhapsodies

Angelically pleasing

Harps playing through my soul strings

Melting pain from me

Drenching rains

Of sunsets rising

on my skin

Beautiful kissed me everywhere

And up...

Up....

and away I went

 

You asked me to make you

And I took my hands to shape you

And submitted my heart to your plans

Swallowing down reservations

And letting hesitation choke

as I put my foot on his throat

until no more did he exist

I thought I showed u

that eye Loved you

just because

And just the way you R

I thought I took my hands

and brushed past that bruised ego

I never let you See

That I saw

where

u are broken

Never held it over ur head

Not one insecurity did I ever mention

Didnt bring them to ur Attention

Because you asked me to make you

U cried out for me to kiss u thrice

I chose that to be the knife

In which I would sculpt away ur pain

Wipe ur hidden tears away

Keep ur love in golden trust

Safely admired

So delicate

I carved within me

And gave out of me till I bled

You

I didn't want 2 change U

Just love away all that was dead

And all the hurtful images in ur heart

I choose not to blink

U r so artful

And I humbly accepted ur request

As I took ur breath into my chest

And said I will Go higher with him

Trusting u to deliver

On promises

We danced cosmically

And it was like the moon

Winked at me as I soared passed him

And I thought I became

That angel u wanted me 2 be

I guess ancient bonds r made 2 be broken

And i choke on lunch

I had it right b4 U

I knew better then

Knowing that wind

is meant to be felt

Not what carries you

And that same moon did smile

As I spiraled down

Bumping into him with a thud

Tears streaming to earth

You watched me plummeting

You didn't extend

not even a hand

didnt even try to reach 4 me

As I felt the wind laugh

Saying I will no longer carry you

And the clouds cleared the way

Saying timber

And my wings withered and worn

Were even more so torn

Than b4 U handed them to me restored

Even more broken they are now

And I looked at you

Hoping you would see

My open hearted sincerity

As I whispered

Catch Me

Please catch me

And tears surrounded me

You looked away

as if U couldn't

as if you wouldn't

and as if you never asked me to fly

as if U never

took my wings in ur hands to give them flight

and I didn't even try to fight

I began to welcome the ground

I missed the way it felt

I was more so used to being down

Familiar territory

Cover the sound of my heart crashing

And I know better than to make a fuss

So I gave into the gravity

Knowing that I would come undone

As the crashing thud

Broke me beyond recognition

And U heard my heart breaking in my throat

As my voice was shaken by tears

You pretended not to hear

The death rattle that shook my dreams

You watched me hit the ground

And walked away

As I lay slain by asphalt

Impacted hurts

Broken thoughts

I don't think clearly anymore

I only remember this

my sweetest downfall

 

I no longer walk

I think I may have loved you first

But I put Us in hearse

Until time for a proper burial

Until I heal enough to put my tongue back in

And I will just fly with pen n my hand

Close to the ground

Never to go high again

I knew better than 2 fly

To begin with

And my I love you still outlines the clouds

And the moon remembers how I adored you so

And he reminds the sun that I still do

Asking him to hide his rays

Because they make me remember U

And the wind still looks for dancers like us

And the stars promised never to shine as bright

As they did when you loved me in ur thoughts

Held me with ur heart

And gave me rest in ur words

Be4 they were all erased

And all that is left

Is tear stains

And I guess history

Will tell no tales

As we are erased from time

And from ancient writings

With goodbye

 

 

Reviews

[Choosing Life]

I am glad you enjoyed the poem...Thanks for the review..

[Mr. Deft Diction]

Wow. This is a truly tragically beautiful piece. I always like when you speak about loss and love. There's something so real in what you say. Almost as if "I" was the subject of your words. That's what makes them so beautiful to me. I can see ME in them.

This is just another piece that I will put in my library. You're quite prolific to me.

Keep them coming.