Of Angelic Composition

After the love is lost, it stil remains

 

I still smile when I think of how you formulate thoughts

I smile when I remember how you deduct and calculate

Divide and multiply life with philosophical grace

I smile when I think of the genius of your reasoning

The way you take words and give them purpose

Whether they are gliding off your tongue and rolling off your lips

Or scrolling from your pen

There is such beauty within your Soul

And I still get warm when I think of how

Your smile can be felt when it can't be seen

And the way your laughter is subtle just like you

Often there are hints of it in your voice

Chuckles through your words spoken

So warm

I remember their touch upon my ears

I still smile when I think of the way

You showed me men still existed

They weren't as extinct as they appeared to be

I smile when I think of the way you drew my soul

To yours and made it safe

Or the way my heart in your hands found calm

And began to dance as if it was trained in the art of ballet

We did pirouettes around this universe just my heart and me

All the while your hands and words gave us license to

Just beautiful

Even now thanks to your touch

Someone said I was amazing and I smiled

As I thought 2 myself this must be a remnant of his brilliance

Must be some reflection of the splendor that you left

And even now as I sun rain from my face

As smile meets with beautiful in love tears

Some sort of angelic composition

Playing beautifully on my face

Takes place~

And the silence and distance grows walls thick as steel

Separating me from any hope of any form of your touch

Removing and erasing what once was

I still smile especially when I remember the way

Your heart used to long for mines

The way worry left my mind when I thought of you

Or remembered you would always be here for me

However at times I do come undone

Sometimes wanting to return to your love

Sometimes wanting to be found in your thoughts

Sometimes needing the boom of your voice to tickle my eardrums

Sometimes needing the words of your heart to surround my mind...

Then comfort my dreams and console my aching thoughts

And I keep wondering just when

And where in the hell did I lose you?

How did I miss the transition?

I refused to sleep not wanting 2 miss a thing

I keep trying to understand

How I missed whatever change took place

The change that took you away from me

Because I refused to blink

Wanting to experience every breath of you

Maybe my eyes got tired and I fell asleep

Thinking I must have only closed them for a second of rest

But it must have been more like years~

You unraveled my fingers

 and wiggled out of my arms

And lifted them off of you

Like one does covers

so gentle as not to wake me

As I rested next to you

Confident in all that we shared

And you moved so softly away that the bed didn't shake

And you inched from beneath my fingers.

Slid out of my arms and I didn't wake

But I think that even in my sleep I felt you slipping.

I still tend to find a calm in my soul thinking of you

Although letting go sucks. It tears.

I tasted a miracle in you so sweet even now

The traces of it linger in my heart

The aroma follows me like a haunting

My friends just don't get me right now thinking I am tripping

As they witness my soul ripping and my heart skipping beats

They can't see that even though I feel cold

There is this spark of you in my heart

That still brings warmth

Left from when you protected me from the dark

And I let down my guards from time to time

When only your voice will make it all right

Or sleep is evading me

And I smile because that familiar voice sparks delight

And I relax as you say what you always do

Because I always get rings followed by an automated beep

And your machine greeting never changes

Even though you and I have went through many different changes...

We went from friends to lovers

And the greatest of companions we became

Then we pretended we would remain friends

Only to turn back into strangers~

Reviews

[Chloe..Across the Unive..]

Beautifull sad poem .. i am very impressed,
Chloe
xoxo

[forfila]

Ohhh this is so sad=( yet so beautiful, I can't keep telling you how well you express love, but I feel I must say something when I come to he end of each poem. You speak of such a pure love, it is such that it tells me there are still good women out there to love, for that I thank you.

Another peice from you that is touched and riddled by your beauty.

Mind my spelling please =)

Love from,
Me.