today

i want to apologize in advance for this post


heaven tumbled as grasses rebelled
could this be rain?
or mere thought of water


pain now grasp my being
making me wonder if i could love him right

his love wraps me around and i bask in his peace
but i have this fetish that he might make me cry

he has given me no reason to doubt but i chose to live in fear
the result i now bear..... pain
i fear him.. his love, care, and shadow
but i hope he will one day understand  why i chose to say goodbye

closing my PC as he walks closer
i outta understand why