i see...free...me

my latest breakthrough....#exhale

Stripped totally of thought

And word

And false pretense

I stand naked

Before you

And you helped unclothe me

And I resisted

And it was everything

but inappropriate

Necessary purging

To remove the disease

I inflict upon myself daily: guilt

I do

And never forget

And never let myself forget that I haven’t forgotten

This circular cycle of dragging myself by shame’s chains

Neck first into darkness

My own melancholic mental

You are truth

Because you are sent

Not perfect

But perfectly bent

By Him

For this time

And it’s sweet to grow

And it’s sweet to stretch

And it’s utterly humiliating

To air my laundry

Dirty and wet

But I must speak what I won’t forget

 

If I seek the free roam

In the plains of righteousness

And mercy

Accepting gifts of grace

And glory

Maybe at my own pace

But now accepting

Because of you

The messenger

And the slap

The exhorter

And the love

And all that need be said from above

Pursed at the tip of your lips

And you ask

“am I listening?”

and I answer with an ear

and you whisper all things dear

from the heart of our Father

and I remember you are my brother

and I love you now

more than before

when I wasn’t free

but I’m getting there

the air feels different now

the earth moves different now

and I’m finally breathing

and I’m finally living

and I’m finally running

and just might start flying

until someone tells me that’s not possible

 

gliding in the breeze

I’m free

I’m free

I’m me

And I make no apologies

Author's Note

just a draft...would love your thoughts.

Reviews

[SpokenWord]

People can find freedom in many different ways. It is our minds that hold us hostage and often we blame it on others outside of self when in fact it is our own opinion of self that chains us in a repeating circle of unhappiness. Some people find this freedom from our creator while others find it in other sources.

I have always felt free in my life except when I allowed myself to value someone elses opinion over my own and then I felt obligated to live up to their expectations and in doing so I wasn't living at all I was existing. The hardest lesson in life I have learned is to accept me and all my weidness, all my mistakes, all the ugliness that I may have in doing so I found happiness. Beautiful poem :)

[Chris Smith Welshpoetcs]

We need to escape those mental chains, to be released. Great poem.

[J.W.]

I believe in this poem, you sought to try and discover your self: mind, body & soul. In doing so your choice of words and your abtract style of writing did the rest to form an equisite odyssey of a poem.

[Zeitgeist Manifesto]

This is inspirational work.
You poured your heart into this one.

[Dream Weaver]

A beautiful draft indeed, simply captivating!