Damaged

A look at the world through damaged eyes. Flash Fiction

 

Damaged

 

 

She couldn’t see it, but I could. Sitting from my perch, monotonously dragging items across the infrared rays, I saw a lot of things others could not. Maybe it was the vantage point, or maybe my life had just better taught me how to look.

It wasn’t that he was a villain or some kind of predator, no; however, she was very much like prey. He was a young twenty-something, pushing around half a cart of groceries, just trying to find the quickest way out of the store and back home (what young man wants to be stuck in the grocery store one second longer than necessary?). It could’ve have been pure coincidence, he could’ve just innocently wandered into her line; but why? There were quicker lines on either side of her, so why her line? Some part of me couldn’t help but think he’d done it intentionally, just to get closer to her, but that was some old, paranoid part; a part I’ve been trying to get past, but can’t seem to. My logical half saw it was clear he entered the line with no ulterior motives, after all, the people checking out were the only people in the line; he even seemed to scan around the store for another line when he noticed the overflowing buggy in front of him, but in the end he decided he was content to wait. Still…

He was a good looking guy, a young guy, and she clearly noticed. She shot him nervous glance after bashful look, but he seemed oblivious to anything not having to do with the speed of the items moving across the scanner.

Grandma, though, was not.

She had seen her granddaughter sneaking shy glances at the handsome young man behind her, and thought this as good time as any to play matchmaker. The fact that her granddaughter was, by my guess, no older than fifteen, and the young man behind her was no younger than twenty-two, seemed to register no issue with her. She wasn’t one of those twenty-nine year old grandmothers; she was a real grandma, in her day that kind of age gap was no issue; common even. It did surprise me, though, that an old-fashioned woman like herself would approve of this type of relationship, one that would’ve never happened when she was a teenager, not publicly anyway. I could only guess that Grandma’s pickiness, or assertiveness, had led to a matchmaking failure in the past and she was willing to make an exception this time around if it avoided that outcome. Any man was better than no man " a life she refused to see another one of her kin go through " and he seemed good enough.

And he was. As I said, he wasn’t a predator or anything like that; to his eyes this was a beautiful young woman of seventeen or eighteen, clearly interested, a little shy, using her grandmother as a proxy flirt to ensure she didn’t say anything she’d be embarrassed about later. And from the shy, flirtatious looks she kept sending his way, he was becoming more and more confident he’d get in her pants. Nothing wrong with that type of thinking from a young man, it’s expected. That singular goal guides most men through every decision they make from twelve to thirty-five;  it was certainly what was motivating him to have this friendly conversation with Grandma.

To them it all seemed innocent enough, but I knew I’d been there before: looking like a grown woman at fourteen; being awestruck by the so cool, so handsome older guy willing to give me the time of day; feeling so cool as I brag to all my friends back at school that I am dating a college guy and he loves me. I knew exactly where this went.

She’d give him a piece of herself she can only give once, and never get back, and with that would go her whole heart. And as his masculine presence filled the empty void in her she didn’t even realize was there, she’d begin confusing feelings of false security, and infatuation with love. How long would it take for that love to turn into submission; a willingness to do anything, to swallow whatever pride she has, to tolerate any action, so long as he doesn’t leave her.

And what would the poison that is control do to him? How long, after he realized he had complete power over her heart, would it take for things to go sour, for him to stop playing the nice guy because it was no longer necessary. How many years would she endure? How many plans would she alter for the sake of their toxic relationship? How many dreams killed? When would he hit her for the first time? When would he start berating her every single day? When would he completely crush all of her self-worth and dominate her entire existence? How long after that until he crushes the last of her spirit, turning this beautiful, vibrant, adorably bashful girl into a shell, incapable of love and trust?

“Sir, I’m open. You can come to my line.”

Never.

Author's Note

Inspiration for this story: I was in walmart in a long line. I thought I saw a freind of my younger sister in front of me. I was looking hard trying to see if it was her or not and then, a cashier invited me to her line which was JUST AS LONG as the line I'd just left. I began to wonder why she'd invited me there and this is what I came up with!

Reviews

[Truman S. Booth]

This was awesome. A well organized, interesting piece that crescendoed to the very end. I love your writing style; I'll be sure to read even more of your work. Great, original story here, with fascinating, thought-provoking concepts. Very well done.

I need to add, also, something I noticed. The whole scenario that the cashier creates in her head is entirely hypothetical... it's not even guaranteed to happen. But she treats it as if it's inevitable unless she does something to stop it, which goes to show how much her experience has damaged her. It makes the character very real somehow. Splendid development there. A pristine short story.

[Coyote Poetry]

You create a interesting story. What can go through a mind with too much time to think. I like the internal thoughts in the story. Every time I go shopping. On a hot summer day. Mind can wander to other things. Thank you for a excellent story.
Coyote

[Kiari Sabon]

good

[SparksLC]

Wow, really good. I loved the questioning and how observational the cashier was. =)Great work! This was a neat story. It definitely showed how vulnerable people can become in relationships.

[roy mccarthy]

cool story,you have a talent for writing!

[Jessi Berlasty]

"paranoid part;(,) a part I’ve been trying to get past,(no comma) but can’t seem to." "with no ulterior motives,(;) after all, the people checking out" "but in the end(,) he decided" "young man behind her,(No comma) and thought this" "she was a real grandma,(.) i(I)n her day(,) that kind of age gap was no issue;(,) common even." "matchmaking failure in the past(,) and she was willing" " Any man was better than no man " a life she refused to see another one of her kin go through " and he seemed good enough." WC glitch. "to his eyes(,) this was a beautiful young woman" "To them(,) it all seemed innocent enough" "she can only give once,(No comma) and never get back," "confusing feelings of false security,(No comma) and infatuation with love." "it was no longer necessary.(?)"

Amazing. You definitely have a way with words. I think it's great you pulled inspiration out of your daily life like that.

[Muse]

Ha ha ha I loved it. It reminds me of my teenage days. Always questioning the opposite sex and their hidden motives. And the wise less naive Grandmother who knows better..................great insight!

[Veronica Chandler]

Timothyj22, I read your story and I must say, "I too see things others cannot as see like a second sight." I also read your other work The Curse and it illuminated that this second sight probably happens for the same reason for us both. As a female I experienced it differntly than you but really the same. You are brave and the bravery inspires me. Thank you for talking about the taboo in an honest and forthright way for it gives others a leg up in the search understanding.

[ChicagoMay]

"being so awestruck by the so cool, so handsome older guy willing to guy me the time of day" - Should that be GIVE me the time of day? ;)

Overall, well written and entertaining to read. Interesting to read what might be going on in the mind of the cashiers at the grocery store. As a formed cashier, I didn't think like this person does, but if I had, it would certainly have been more enjoyable. Keep up the great writing.