Weekend visitation

My eyes turn red from the blood flowing to my head.
"You will not see them"
Her voice unmistakably dead.
Spite and offense; her motives are plain.
"Not this weekend" if she had her way never again.

Ok...breathe...let it go, all these things I think. F**k! I seethe as I rapidly sink.
into a self pity that mercilessly jails,
I'm deleting these thoughts though, as if they were viagara emails.

Take the high road? the road less traveled? But with all this contempt I've already unraveled.

Stop! Cries A red sign, a miraculous bind. Appearing so clearly, slowing my mind.

Reconcile with a peace that surpasses understanding
Give up your rights and being so demanding.

They love you even in their absence, blood loves its blood this stains your conscience.

Reviews

[KAOlmsted]

Okay, in the midst of empathizing with you, feeling your anger and frustration, I had to pause and smile..."I'm deleting these thoughts though, as if they were viagara emails." *laugh* Priceless. And now, back to your pain...

This was an incredibly expressive write, and I enjoyed reading it, a lot more, I wager, than you enjoyed living it. I'm sorry. But the bright light at the end, where you are aware of the love your children have for you in your absence, is beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing this with us.

-kimmer

[timothygalexander]

thank you, its a process. First anger than blame, internalizing and self pity then laughing at yourself and finally letting go and understanding that its not really what happens to you that matters moreless its how you respond.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

"But with all this contempt I've already unraveled"

so how can i take the road less traveled.

this is Frost-like in its phrasing and smoothness--

but i feel more guts in this...i feel the speaker...

this poem lets out for the poet...but is so relatable for the reader...

been divorced three times...and that gave me lots of days with tears.

and also a feeling of...not being good enough.

i understand the "self-pity that mercilessly jails"

good piece.

jacob

[rubie]

Wow! The heartbreak and the anger really comes through here! So much power in these words.

The "red" imagery (blood, stop sign, etc) is so intense.

Beautifully done!