![]() Fear of Fear ItselfA Poem by tiggerluhoo![]() I think this is a question all we perfectionists ask ourselves..... That we won’t measure up to every-one's expectations, that our work won’t be good enough. Fearing the fact that we can’t be perfect.![]() I’m lying on my bed soaking my pillow with tears, trying to remember exactly what is my fear. Is it the passing of time or the love that I lack? The mistakes that I've made or that I can't take them back? What is it that I'm afraid of? Why am I so scared? Is it the fact that all my friends back then never cared? Is it the people I've hurt or the people that hurt me? Am I afraid of everything I can’t seem to see? Is it the love of a friend, or the loss of family? Is it the chance that my life can end in a tragedy? Is it the vivid sun that sets but won't seem to rise? Is it the hope that I have that always seems to die? Is it the trust of a person that I cannot grasp? Is it all the memories of my well hidden past? Is it me? Is the thing I fear most of all- the thing I can't be? The things that I try to understand but do so bad? The me that I always try to be when I'm feeling sad? The person I'm supposed to be? Is that what I fear? Is it the talking behind my back saying I’m queer? Or the fact that all my friends-with me they disagree? I think that the thing that I fear most of all . . .is me © 2012 tiggerluhoo |
StatsAuthor![]() tiggerluhooRoosevelt, UTAboutI'm an outgoing actor/piano teacher/high school student/ writer/ Mad Hatter Fanatic!! Mad Hatter is my inspiration, and my only true love (for now) My favorite book genres include some sci-fi, futuris.. more..Writing
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