Pain or Relief?

I don't think I left empty handed

I know I took a big part of your life

I stabbed you in the heart with a clear knife

You were always there

Even with those sleepless nights I knew it was unfair

It was too good to be true

Since day one I did not know what to do

So I told you

and you said "love is just a word so I paid the price"

Life can always be a spinning dice

But listen you came, twice.

You say you could give it all to me?

How is that true to be?

All of this was left on seen

Even from the start

There was nothing to tell apart

Straight from that Saturday night

I felt like you chatted and left me on sight

Then you came

And I hit you with the flame

You did say from the start you will make it up to me

Now here we are I cant even see

Cant see you

Or even see you on video chat till the sky turns back to blue

You tried to be my friend but you fell?

How could we not tell?

The vibe was great 

I did not want to separate 

Truth was told 

Because I had to be bold 

and now there is nothing to do, I know, I know

You wanted to be my boo..

I know we could have been counted Benjamin's

But through that there would have been many sins 

Sitting down with the sand hitting our feet's?

Posting all the pictures out so people can tweet

We would not be there for clout

I just know many times we sought

Sought to know the truth

Knowing one day or night it would poof

Poof into thin air 

As if what we had was not there

So how about you try new flavor?

Just do me one favor

Find that girl

Who has nice curly hair 

There is plenty more out there..

I know your the type to tell the truth

I know we vibe from the start

But here we are far apart

Giving you time 

So you can come out and shine

Be the star that you are

Its okay ill see you one day pass by in that thousand dollar car

I see potential in your heart

Do not let this tear it apart

Keep your head up

It will be okay buttercup

I am always here

Do not dare think I disappeared

I still check your page

Even when your blanked out of it in a cage

A cage of pain

That I know one day a woman will fix and regain

Regain the love you need

Be brave

Do not stay in this cage

This cage of hurt

That will leave you to divert

Have fun

Go out in the sun

Enjoy life

and do not cut yourself with a knife

A knife of pain

Be brave and insane

Your better then you think

wink wink,

Let that sink

Remember I know how you think

Just be you

And know I am always here and I always got you.