Footsteps in Cement

The memories, imprinted in my mind as if they were engraved 

into my brain, forced there with a force so strong

one can not imagine its power 

The words you said, 

etched into my heart

only growing more prominent with each beat 

The scent of your cologne, 

sweet and full of memoir 

pulls me back to that day 

as i struggle to stay in the present 

but suddenly I'm there with you

held in your arms again 

strong, steady, safe

your hazel eyes stare into mine 

with what i only realize now was but lust 

not love 

your promises collapsed 

as if they were a sandcastle 

crushed by the overpowering waves of 

selfishness, lust and narcissism

And my heart did the same, 

for it was filled only with 

love, hope and endearment 

only for you. 

and now at night your memory sings 

as the tears flow like rivers from my eyes 

a quiet, yet unnaturally loud lullaby 

puts me to a restless sleep, 

where you haunt me in my dreams   

your memory continually haunts me, 

tortures me, invades my life 

your words, your voice, 

your shattered promises, 

shards protruding, impaling my heart 

as if they were glass

all stay as permanent indentations on my heart 

no matter how many times

someone tries to fix them, 

fill them in, cover them up 

they'll always linger 

permanent scars, marks that remind me.