Jaded Wildflower

Here's a link to my you tube channel where I read my poetry. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PMvnUCN6Rmc

When I was
20
I became
involved with
a married woman.
She said that
her husband was
abusive.
She was looking
for a way out
or a break.

She had the
most amazing eyes.
Wild and dark,
like a walnut, on fire.
She smelled like
the earth, sweat,
and wildflowers.
There was something
uncaged about her.

I was young
and naive.
I believed everything
and hoped too much.

The sex was
ferocious.
She taught me a lot.
We broke the
bed and took
bubble baths together.
It was a lavender love.

One day, she came
home with a balloon and
flowers.
She said we are
having a baby.
Those wild
eyes flashed pure joy.

My mom was
worried.
"She has a husband."
My mother was a realist.
She accepted it though,
even bought the woman
some gifts.

It didn't take long for
Amber to show a side
of her, I hadn't seen.
I caught her in some
small lies, and she became
violent when upset.

The affair ended.
She went back to
her husband.
It felt like my heart was
being
ripped out through
my nose.
Pain like a
rotting organ.

I remember talking to
a friend about it on
the phone,
pausing to vomit.
It hurt so
f*****g bad.

Her sister called
me a week after
the split.
I asked about the
pregnancy.
It was all a lie.
She had a
hysterectomy a few
years earlier.

I still believe in people,
and hope too much,
and the years have made
me wiser.

I heard much
later that
she died at 40 of
lung cancer.
Those beautiful dark
eyes finally got
some rest.

Author's Note

My book, Seedy Town Blues Collected Poems is available on Amazon.com

Reviews

[red93]

Brilliant Work Thomas. I guess I am one of those fortunate persons who has never been involved with a real 'she-devil' (touch wood). All my Ladies have pretty much 'done what it says on the tin.' But I guess such villains exist - and you have recorded the troubled interactions extremely well. As you know, I am not one to throw false praise around - but this Poem is a 'Masterpiece'.

[Thomas W Case]

Thank you so much.

[Arundass TP]

Looks calm first, but later thunderous and rain. Excellent writing.

[Thomas W Case]

Thank you, my friend.

[Arundass TP]

Welcome friend, Have a nice day 😊

[JessyJacob]

I am sorry i am liar and i play with innocent boys because they are too naive who cannot see my f**k lie. You know my son too believes me but i am a bulllshit f*****g woman who wanted sex.

Thank yoi so much.

[Pete]

that's some wildflower. amazing story - intriguing. i guess that's the kind of stuff that happens when you stop to smell the roses and live on the edge. nice work, well told.

[Thomas W Case]

Thank you, my friend. I appreciate it.

[John the Baptist]

What a story! Life has a way of teaching us lessons, and sometimes those lessons are a rough ride.

[Thomas W Case]

Thank you, my friend. I appreciate.

[Neville]

.. it happens and often but when it does, it sure hurts like hell doesn't it ..

[Thomas W Case]

Thank you, kind sir.