How much you mean to me

I wake up to your smiles. I wake up to your love. I see in your eyes that i belong to you. I see that you love me. I see that you care. I see how much you hate it, when i'm not there. I see how much you protect me. I see the want to just grab me and hold me and never let me go. I see how you protect me, even when i'm here. I see your blue eyes when i am not there. I see your blonde hair, swaying in the breeze. I see your strong arms wrapped around me. I see your legs chasing after me, in a game of tiggy, laughing, smiling and playing. Why cant we have that. I dont know. it hurts to much when i go home. When i step outside that car, i instantly miss your smiles, your laugh, your hugs. I miss your eyes with the love, I miss your arms wrapped protectively around me. I miss your love, when your not here. I miss seeing you smile when i'm not there. I want the same thing. We only have a year. Until we can do that. I love you my angel. Theres nothing in the world, that can explain, how much i care about you. I can show you love. I can show you I care. But for me that isnt enough. I need to show i love you. i need to show i care. and that cannot be done, in a short 3 days. it will take a lifetime to show how much i care. to show you how much you mean to me when your not there. Even though you arent. I still think about you. I want to show I love you. When your not there. I love you my angel. Please dont forget. Your my guardian and I love you.

As i lay awake of a night.My thoughts go back to you. Your laugh. Your smile. Your hugs and your voice. I think how much I miss you. I think about our love. I think about how much I want you here right here in my arms. When I finally get to sleep. My dreams are filled with you. Your laughter. Your smiles. Your singing. You and i. I think about our arya and what she would be like. I think about the love we have and I know that we are real. I pinch myself at school when I think of you Because you are just amazing. If only you knew. I wish you didn't have to fight to just awake everyday. I wish depression didn't hit you. You.don't deserve it. I think about our future. God it is so bright. We're happy and living with a beautiful baby in our arms. You come home each day with a smile on your face. If you dont, I put it back there. I think about your touch. I think about your love. I think about how much you want to just be in my arms. I want the same thing. You have no idea. Just how much I do when i'm not in your arms. I know I am loved. I know that you care. I know that you will never leave my side. We only have three years, until we can marry. It wont take long baby. We just need to care. We need to get through this. We need to want. We need to support each other when we are down. I know I'm not the best. I know I'm not perfect. I know I may not be happy, but with you I AM. As I lay awake at night, just before I go to sleep. my thoughts go back to you. i think about your smiles. i think about your love. I think about you cuddle. I think about your laughter. These things get me through my day. Knowing that you love me. When I finally get to sleep. I think about your love. I think about your smiles. I think about your hugs. I focus on the next day, hoping we'll get through. Knowing it is one day closer, till i get to see you. I know this is long but I need you to see. Just what I think about when your not with me.

Your voice is enough to make me smile and when you have to go, I break inside.  I LOVE YOU BABY BOY

Reviews

[hcarson]

Okay..i had a few different thoughts reading this...the main one being it is a couple who are separated with the man in prison? .? I feel a lot of truth and emptying of your emotions and frustrations have created this piece. Apologies if i have completetly misread it. I like it, like i say it feels honest and true, i personally would have restructured it but at the same time because it is such an emptying of emotions the way it is presently structured also fits it well because it is ''simply getting it out of the system" so you can breath easier maybe...well done, i enjoyed..not the persons sadness and frustration of course but the expression of it.

[Littlelady]

The purpose behind this was telling him how much I loved him
He wasnt in jail but rather at a different school and i missed him
We didnt see each other very often as he lived in New South Wales and I lived in Queensland

[hcarson]

Ahh so i was kind of close..there was a separation...apologies for putting the poor bugger in prison...says a lot on how my mind works!! I truely hope you are together soon and live the life you want...i also am from sdouthbwales although it is the one in britain, not australua unfortunatly lol

[Littlelady]

Yeah
But our countries are connected by the past
He was a funny bugger though

[hcarson]

They are connected, very much so...think you got the better end of the deal being over there tho...except for the spiders!!! Do you still see this person or were just expressing old felings?

[Littlelady]

just expressing old feelings

[hcarson]

Well you expressed them well :)

[Littlelady]

thank you very much