AbandonedA Poem by thisopenbookIts about how it feels to be left and yet still trying to hold on to their presenceWhen I was little, you used to hold my hand Even thought we were only crossing a street.. and I was already 7 You taught me to laugh, people say I have your smile Or that stubborn toss of my head when I am going through life's trials I grew up to soft crooning and loud talking on the phone Forced to go to church in uncomfortable, poufy-sleeved clothes It soon changed as time passed on Soon daddy was out of the picture, and your boyfriend and I made to get along But he didn't want me, so you were forced to choose Between the love of your life or the daughter you stood to lose I lost... But at what cost? I went to live with daddy, he didn't mind me being here He endured me painting his toenails and girlying up his man-chair I'd wake up in the morning, stay still just hoping mommy would appear And yell "Surprise! Just kidding, I want you with me!" out of nowhere It did not happen... The lock on my heart was unfastened... The thump of mommy's heart synchronized with every beat To my own, forming a mother and daughter harmony That I mistook in my own eyes to mean The bond we shared would be old and everlasting People say if you love someone, let them go Have they ever tried it, because they would never say it again after being exposed Giving all of your heart for someone to hold But discovering they walked out the door with it and the trail gone cold Being the one girl whose mom never came For 8th grade graduation, though I called and emailed you the date I'm still growing older, and yet the silence continues When all I want on my birthdays is a visit from you You don't come... I wonder what it is I have done... Despise me mommy? I don't know anymore I kept waiting for you to return and claim me as yours Did I not love you enough, hug you to your hearts content? If you take me back, you wont regret giving me a second chance Daddy says God wont answer my special requests To make me the angel you always said you never possesed Did you ever get those letters I send every week? I've been waiting 5 years, maybe the mailman's satchel has a leak Mommy? I'm starting to think you're never coming for me I've been waiting but it's like you forgot half of how to play hide-and-go -seek © 2013 thisopenbook |
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Added on June 25, 2013Last Updated on June 25, 2013 Tags: sadness, childhood, abandonment AuthorthisopenbookNaples, FLAboutI'm in high school but I've been writing poetry as a comfort from my years in middle school. more..Writing
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