Confined Forever

Nailed to my bed,

I am on display;

Confined in its center,

I cannot help but lay

In the desolation, 

The turmoil attacking

My innocent, polluted

Mind, the fear backing

Away with each step

That hatred and pain take;

My head resting on trust,

I never want to wake

And discover that it

Is nothing more than mere lies.

I fear for myself,

And every night all I do is cry

Myself to sleep though

I know I must be on my guard

Lest agony and torture

Rip at my skin with shards

Of sharpest glass;

Oh, how I am afraid!

I wish I could forget

Everything that has made

Me who I am today;

But if I follow my heart,

I know that the world will end

And my life will fall apart.

I lie atop a meaningless mattress

And under silk secrets;

I’ve tried to find others,

But I am all who fits

In the impressions in the center

Of the bashful, banishing bed-

Have I nowhere to rest,

Nowhere to lay my head

While demons devour my mind

From the inside out?

My cell is soft and comfy,

But I cannot help but want to shout-

Have I nowhere to go?

Have I no escape or rescue?

With judgment hazy and clouded,

What on earth is one to do?

For all to see on display,

I am nailed in its center of sin;

For all to mock and jest,

I am one, I and my burdens.

Reviews

[The 13th Eros]

There are chains in the soul that cannot be broken alone. This cuts and bites to the core of your being. Please know that for every demon who brings a poison to quiet you, a thousand angels stand ready to bring your healing tonic.

[G!o]

Wow. This has definitely reached my inner core. This is beautiful painful writing something i can totally relate to. Good writing Marie. Definitely going to my shelf....

[Sarah Marie]

o wow thank you! And thanks for the review! I really appreciate it!

[G!o]

It's always an honor to read such an amazing writing