confessions of an ex Catholic

An emotional vent of a poem with some strong language (devote Christians/Catholics may find this poem offensive)

they say 'absolute power corrupts absolutely'
   though i've never heard it said about

God?

    what makes Him so f*****g special?

   so squeaky clean?

 have you read His so called 'holy books'
 the part where God
 in all His divine wisdom
  advices man just how to

 beat a slave

 correctly?

   but that's okay
'cos shackles were in fashion back then

  well,
  for the shackled...


"thou shalt not kill" said the Big G one day
      though there's always one or two
   exceptions:
    why
     those
      naughty homosexuals,

        unbelievers,

   even those who work on Sunday's
      must be

          STONED TO DEATH

         oh blessed
          is Thy form
          of capital punishment...


and what kind of mind
could even ask a fan like Abraham
to sacrifice his only son?

a healthy one?


though it comes as small surprise
from a God
who has a fetish
for
infanticide,

who sent wild bears
to tear young kid's apart,

who lovingly said
"ye shall eat the flesh of your sons,
and the flesh of your daughters..."

i could go on
and on
but the s**t
God's said and done
is enough to give

even Freddy Krueger

NIGHTMARES

'cos i'm talking about some sick
F**k
who just sat upon a pious cloud
watching His only son

being nailed to a cross

and did absolutely

Nothing?


then we pray to Him
expecting help???


but worse of all i have to love
with all my fearful heart
this self proclaimed
all merciful

God

'cos if i don't

He will cast my doubting a*s to hell
to be tortured

and tortured

and tortured

and tortured


but He loves us...doesn't He...?

kneeling, praying, prostrate, worshipping
His bloody boots
like the shell of a snail's back,

sheeping off each Sunday afternoon
to be told
how guilty i should feel,

wining and dining
on the flesh and blood of 'His crucified son'

the symbol of His love?

though if i ever decide
to show my son
the inside of a church
and if ever he points towards

that man on a cross with a crown full of thorns

i will tell him
the truth:

"that's what torture looks like son
and that's no symbol of love
and his father was wrong to let this happen
and i know that...because i love you."


so go ahead my Lord
You must have known this poem was in the making
strike me down with a lightning bolt

i dare Yah !

No,

i double dare Yah !!

there's a black storm brewing tomorrow
i'll be waiting outside

flying my kite

 

Author's Note

The God in this poem is in reference to Yahweh, that is, the brutal God of the Torah, the Old and New Testament as well as the Qu'ran. I am not athiest.

Reviews

[marcus]

Yes the main problem I have with 'Religion' is the old testament. Not my kind of god, that's for sure!

[Marie]

Ah but I'm partial of the God of the Old Testament. There's a certain amount of security in punishment...

[thewholesoul]

Whatever floats your boat Marie, but if one's notion of security is security from abuse and punishment then I don't understand your statement. The creator of the universe who was allegedly channeled by the chaps who wrote the bible is not a nice entity to put it mildly: "Happy is he who repays you for what you have done to us. He who seizes your infants and dashes them against the rocks. (Psalms 137:8-9)" Now I know in my heart and soul (and so do you) that murdering innocent babies is evil and wrong. Only a pure psychopath could be "HAPPY" carrying out such a despicable act. Now when I come across 'evidence' like this quoted directly from the old testament, which there is no shortage of, I know, that the chap s who wrote the old testament were NOT in fact channeling the true creator of the universe who for me is a God of love and compassion. If on the unlikely event that they were channeling the creator of the universe, then such an entity is not worthy of my respect and devotion. I believe that those who are partial, as you put it, to this lunatic God of the old testament are suffering from cognitive dissonance, now I don't mean to cause you any offense by saying this Marie, I'm just telling you the truth. Take care and the very best of wishes

[Marie]

Oh, well I don't believe much of the New Testament either...

[Mick Burke]

That's a great opening. this poem shows so much of the hypocrisy in religion and how it can be twisted to totally contradictory meanings.

[thewholesoul]

cheers mick, thanks for taking the time to read and comment. much appreciated. and i agree its the dogma of religion that i reject. i beleive in a creator but the idea that those 'guys' who wrote the holy books were some how 'channeling' the creator of the universe is highly unlikely given the awful barbaric statements and messed up morality contained within those books. thanks again

[Tom McRoberts]

True story: I was actually raised Catholic but never really believed. At age 16 I kinda snapped and got really aggressive towards the views of the religious, citing the same Old Testament atrocities. I'm past that not 'live and let live', so long as no one does horrible things with their faith (which isn't too much of a problem in the UK, usually). I say all this because I know how real the frustration in this poem is, and it's more important that poetry be real than wholesome. Good work.

[thewholesoul]

cheers mate, for the read and comment, i agree, my parents are still cathilic, i have nothing against people personally, people are free to beleive what they want on the condition that they do not cause injury harm or loss to another human being as a result of those beliefs. have a great day