Christmas Stew

dinner is ready...

"I'm so sorry baby..."

   Sorry, you can only say sorry to somebody so many times, then it becomes meaningless, and they go numb to it. The hardest thing I ever had to do was tell somebody that said they love me that I don't love you... 

   To watch their heartbreak before your eyes because, at that moment, they know there's nothing that they can do to keep you. The heart races. The stomach is filled with butterflies. As they are hit with betrayal, failure, and unavoidable change.

Change. People can try to play it off, but most of the time people hate change. The fear of not knowing what's next. There is nothing comfortable to grab on to. As you are forced to wander down an unfamiliar path. Sometimes we just default back to a known problematic situation instead of having to face change. So we don't have to risk failure.

Failure makes us better, but nobody likes the feeling when it happens. Some would rather just stand in place rather than reach for the sky and risk falling on their face. The thought of having to pick yourself up in front of the whole world and wipe the dirt from your knees this is one of life's little betrayals to humanity.

Betrayal most of the time, is seen through flawed eyes, as when somebody doesn't give you what you want or makes you believe that things are a certain way, but in reality they aren't ok. We always seem to forget that the way we see things and the way others see things isn't always eye to eye and this difference can be seen by some as the ultimate betrayal. Betrayal is sometimes just an excuse to not admit you were wrong about someone or something you were so sure of.... 

...Like when you tell someone that you love them and, to your surprise, they say that they don't love you! baby!... and in that unforeseen moment of unexpected uncontrollable anger, you grab the nearest thing next to you. That happened to be an info commercial Ginsu 2000 knife that you really didn't need but, you were bored and f**k it we had the money, plus with one day shipping and black Friday sales it's basically a steal! So with that Ginsu 2000 knife which you were using to cut the potatoes for the Christmas stew you just suddenly slit that person's throat! Oh what did I do? This sudden slit in their throat causes them to gasp while collapsing and bleed out on the kitchen floor. This sudden bloody death takes place in a matter of moments. It's in this moment...at this exact moment. You realize that you have to face change but, you will not admit fault oh no this is not your failure oh no! This was because of a betrayal ; the ultimate betrayal which is leading someone to believe they love only to then pulling the rug out from under them by them telling you they don't love you! "Yes, yes this is his fault, not my fault" you repeat to yourself as you frantically chopped up his body parts and add them to the Christmas stew. A stew that you happily serve to his family the next day and as you all sit there eating the stew with compliments on the flavor coming to you! You sit there smiling eerily seemingly unconcerned of his sudden disappearance while you tell his pondering family with a body parts eating grin " Oh just eat up he will be us shortly. I am sure he is on his way. Honestly, I feel like he is here with us right now! Anyways did I tell you about how much he told me he loved me just the other day?"

by the very jolly unknown sith