White painted walls

White painted walls

A Poem by the bitter taste of almost

Between your white painted walls


I stand in a corner and I look


for the little cracks where


there used to be something once



we used to be untainted



I saw you beat


your own eggs and brood


on the shame;


it gave birth to my guilt



better sorry than safe



Was it your footprint or mine


that soiled the white floors?


Shamelessly, I hide mine


inside yours



Sharp red lines circle me


Strike right through me;


I stand corrected,


You were right:


all footprints are mine


to answer for



Behind the dark door of the night


I dream of secret rainbows and


an endless light


I beg for it to take me and I awake


between the white of your walls


You were right:


I selfishly want it all



I peer between the cracks of paint


There used to be something here


Once;


I can't recall



a memory is a thing too fickle and faint



I saw you throw


away your conscience


and create blame;


I carried it as if it were my name



In the dark I dream of a small flame


and awake to the smell of smoke;


and I apologize



I apologize



I apologize

© 2023 the bitter taste of almost


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Added on March 26, 2023
Last Updated on August 9, 2023
Tags: poetry, poem, grief, trauma, angst, sad, dark, pain, abuse, neglect, depression, dissociation, childhood

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the bitter taste of almost
the bitter taste of almost

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I was almost someone good. Writing poetry about the past; themes of grief, childhood, trauma, dissociation, heartache and ultimately, finding the means to move on. I also paint, draw and sculpt .. more..

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