A door locked

I missed my alarm and slept in,
Heart bleeding full of questions,
Putting holes in the wall until my fists bleed,
Can’t cope with all this anger in me,
Emotions locked inside my mind,
Look close to see the fear in my eyes,
Trying to keep the rage locked in a room to hide,
Broken memories clawing till I’ve scream and cried,
A part of me nobody has touched in years,
There’s no ability to hurt me,
In the end everyone will desert me,
Rage entered my mind years ago,
Locked inside my emotions won’t grow,
Barricaded inside until you stop watching,
I won’t open this door so stop knocking,
Trapped and safe here I’m locked in,
Twisted inside of my own conscience.