An Entity

Lost in my thoughts once again with the haziness of memories surrounding me,

I try to keep the sounds of your laughter away,

Surrounded by everything around me that's small I see you two,

Like smoke through a keyhole your memories always slip silently back into my mind,

I reject, I fight, I scream, I argue my way through those choices,

I am wind surrounded by lightening,

With your invasion like quick flashes,

The winds of anger and regret push your smiling faces away with struggle,

My fight is almost over-I feel myself succumbing back into myself, 

Another strike, another gust and you're pushed back away again,

I feel rage boiling over but with it is the lining of love and longing,

I cannot escape you, I cannot free my idle mind of you,

You're everywhere I go, I see, a touch that turns to dust,

Is this what it's suppose to feel like?

Is this actually true pain or just irritation?

Time in all it's wisdom will tell me before the end comes to claim me....

Reviews

[Rheia]

Beautiful as always J. You can feel the conflict between the anger and love. They are both powerful emotions and basically is kind of like tug-of-war. Keep at it, I'm looking forward to reading more :)