A love-Hate Relationship

Just read it and truly believe it.

I love the things you hate about yourself.

I love the things you hate about yourself. I love the single curl that falls to your face, everytime we kiss. I love the greenish color of your beautiful eyes that look down at me with so much wonder and surprise. I love how you squeeze my hand when you get nervous. I love you. I am utterly and completely in love with every aspect that makes up you. Why must you hate yourself? I was told from a very young age that confidence and self actualization was the key to happiness. Although you’ve never showed signs of those two, I loved you and I was so sure that you loved me too.  

      I hate you.

I hate you. I hate that you were so unhappy. I hate you for not telling me. I hate you for breaking my heart everytime you cried. I hate that I never knew you cried. I hate that you were hurting inside. I hate that you left me without a proper goodbye. All I got was a note. A long, tear-stained note and by the time I finished reading, I was unsure whether those tears were mine or yours. The night you killed yourself, you killed me too. We were never believers in cheesy romance, for we felt the passion in sleeping under the stars, and running away from reality. I’m still here. I did not die to be with you because no matter how much I hate you for leaving me in this barren wasteland... I know you wouldn’t want that. I love all the things you hate about yourself, and I hate that I still love you.

Author's Note

I'm not quite sure where I got the inspiration. Do not comment on my excessive use of "I love...I hate". It's a style of writing. Enjoy!

Reviews

[alifeacoustic]

When a mind is so messed up the only option the person sees is to end it all, then you would have been fighting against the crushing waves to do anything to stop them.
When a mind is so fragile that this option is the only one, no sense you spoke would have changed the outcome.
The shock of whats being buried under the strain and finding out they had bigger problems shouldnt diminish what you had, you must have been important to this person or they wouldnt have been there with you when they could.
Im sorry for your loss. I hope one day you remember the beauty of your time together.

[Sarah]

Don't be sorry as there was no loss. I was just writing freely to see if I could accurately capture how someone would feel in a situation that deals with losing a significant other at a younger age. Your words were so extremely kind however , and I appreciate that very much. Happy holidays!

[ExquisiteEyes]

Frankly speaking, I just don't know what to write. Its so beautifully painful. I think your usage of 'I hate you...I love you' repeatedly has made the point clear. I really like the way the passion flows throughout the writing.
Maximum rating!

[Sarah]

really? thats so sweet! thank you! I didn't think anyone would understand my reasoning. I'm glad you liked it!!!

[Spijazz]

Well, a bit painful and hope it is rare in relationships or a corner you can get around quickly to get on common ground.

[Sarah]

Well I'm hoping you liked it even though it was painful

[Spijazz]

Well, of course, I couldn't put it down.

[Sarah]

Great! that makes me happy.