The Next Stage

I find myself
Standing on the cusp
Of a life changing decision
Regarding the direction
I can take
In my transition.

With a simple phone call
To my doctor’s office
And to CAMH
Will start this next
And possibly final stage
Before my SRS.

In the past
The local transcommunity
Has viewed CAMH
In a very negative light
Through our experiences
With them.

Will admit
I am scared
About placing my future
Into the hands of strangers.

Who will
Either approve
Or decline
Any possibility of me
Getting my SRS.

I know SRS
Is not the final stage
Of transitioning.

Rather
It is a series of steps
Both physical
And psychological.

Like living my life
Openly as a woman
In all facets of it.

Author's Note

CAMH: Centre for Addictions and Mental Health
SRS: Sexual Reassignment Surgery

Reviews

[Jūdan FyreHeart]

It sounds like the scary step onto the final path to reach the destination you've been striving for for so long now. It's becoming something you can actually grasp and the human mind has a horrible way of turning such a positive into something terrifying. You'll do great and everything will work out for you, be positive!