Just A Girl

First time, I saw myself, as a woman in the mirror.

My eyes caught
An image fantastico
One
Never thought possible
Would happen
Within my lifetime.

Of a woman
Staring back at me
Through the bathroom mirror
Early Sunday morning.

First thought
Filled with doubt
And disbelief.

I am
Either half asleep
Or a trick
Caused by low lighting
In the bathroom.

Thus
Can not be true
As I wash up
Heading back to bed.

Only to
Have her appear
Again.

Could this be true
He has left the building
For good
Never to return?

Oh I hope so
Making my wildest dream
Come true
Next to mom’s acceptance
Of me
As her daughter.

Author's Note

Written November 16, 2010.

Reviews

[Frieda P]

Very relatable read therisa, could take this many places...last stanza wrapped it up nicely.

[therisa]

Thank you, Frieda, but sadly, it won't be happening, in this lifetime. As I had to walk away from my mom, for the sake of healing myself. She will never understand, why I couldn't live my life, as her son, any more.

[Frieda P]

I totally understand that, I've not spoken to my parents in years, sometimes it's best for the sake of our own sanity, not to mention karma's a b***h....

[therisa]

So very true.

[CoraZanini]

this is brill truly! "First thought filled with doubt and disbelief"- We all feel like this from times to times.I love your work.!

[therisa]

Thank you, NonameRa, for taking the time to read and review this poem. I hope my other poems live up to your expectations.

[BlackRose]

Brilliantly superb! Describing beautifully. I really enjoyed this. We all can pretty much relate to this on any level. :o)

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[therisa]

Thank you, BlackRose, for your generous words, in the review. This is, one of my happiest day, since I left the closet, behind me.

[BlackRose]

Oh, your very welcome sweetie. That's great to know, so glad it was. :o) That's good, I mean we are who are, nothing can be changed or anyone can change about that. If they don't like it or you for who you are, F**k them, not worth any or an ounce of your time. :o)

[therisa]

I have walked away, from my family, because of this.

[BlackRose]

Really, WOW! That's so sad that it's like that for you. :o(

[therisa]

Am better off, this way, as I have ended a cycle of abuse from my transphobic mom and physically abusive brother. I would have brutal anxiety attacks, before and after, when I met up with my mom.

[BlackRose]

I'm truly sorry again you have to go through this all. That's not right one bit what your going through. :o(

[therisa]

Just part of the territory that some members of the LGBT community have to go through. I wish it wasn't this way, though. I know, of others, who have experienced far worse than I have, and are moving forward with their lives. Just have to deal with my past and move on.

[BlackRose]

Oh, I DO know. I know far worse as well. And such good people it happen to. :o(

[therisa]

But any abuse is, one too many occurrence.

[BlackRose]

Yes, it suuure is. :o/