Me, In A Nutshell

My mental health journey, so far.

Am not

A cripple

Gimp

Or any other word

You want to use.

Although

I do have

A psych assessment

From a transphobic psychiatrist.

Who's report

Has so many holes

Convoy of tracker-trailers

Ninety km long

Could drive through.

But that's

Another story

As they say.

Trying to navigate

The mine field

We call

The Ontario mental health system.

For the proper programs.

Spending more time

On waiting lists

Than getting assistance.

Jumping through

Various hoops

Just to qualify.

While

Struggling with

Severe chronic depression

Agoraphobia

Various anxiety disorders

And PTSD.

And yeah

I have been suicidal.

Since

A young child

Recalling 3 different times

Before the age of twelve.

Otherwise

Everything is

Just peachy.

Never mind

The anxiety/panic attacks

Inspired by

Rush hour traffic

On the local transit system.

Which

Many programs

Are schedule.

Either

To start

Or end

During rush hour.

Oh

Lucky me

Not!