Star Ascending

My relationship with Star, one of my three feline companions.

Soft peal of laughter

Escapes from me

As I watch you

Playing with your toys

On my bed.

 

Letting my mind wander

To that day

In November 2011

When you became

Part of this household.

 

Nearly full grown kitten

With a history of abuse

And abandonment

By humans.

 

You hid

Underneath the toilet

Refusing to come out

As I tried various methods

To coax you out

Each met with failure.

 

Not sure

Why I used

A trail of cat food

To liberate you

From your prison.

 

But

Am glad

It worked.

 

Over the years

I watch

As you made

Huge strides

In your healing

And personal growth.

 

Seeing you

Curled in

And moaning

In your sleep

Pains me.

 

As I want to

Pick you up

Cuddling you

Against my chest

Until that flashback disappears.

 

But know

You're not ready

For that level of contact

Which saddens me

As I understand

All too well

Myself.

 

Still

You're inspiration

As I struggle

In my own healing

To face the world

Head on.

Author's Note

Written, August 15, 2014.

Reviews

[icelandicblue]

I don't understand abuse and cruelty. So many suffer because of someone else. I am happy you and your cat found each other. You help to heal those wounds the two of you in it together.

[therisa]

Icelandicblue, abuse and cruelty, are crimes of power, which one being has over another. And thank you, from myself and Star, for your kinds words, to our healing.

[Benita-Staebell M - Kin..]

Very touching tribute to your kitten.



I can relate to this I have taken
in abused animas as my own in the past
and ones people just bought and dropped
in the streets.



There was a cute black Chow in a card board box
out in the middle of the streets just a medium sized
pup almost an adult I was about 16teen then and she stopped
and put it in her car someone just bought him from the
pet store and threw him away my mom made sure he had
his shots and we kept and took care of him until we found
him a good and loving home I called him Bear.




He reminded me of the full grown Black Chow at a
patience of my moms as my mother is a Nurse
that was a Adult that grew up
with me his name was Bear also and he just loved me
so much and this was the sweetest pup my mom found
and so was the full grown one animals and children love me.



This was over in Vinemont Alabama I moved to Alabama
when I was 12 years old it was Huntsville Birmingham we moved to
at first but I moved around a lot as a child I was born in cedar rapids
Iowa.



my Mother has saved many animals
she taught us very good values and just
having gods love in our home molded me
into the loving soul I am Todayand our friends
our home was like their second home and they called
my Mom, mom also and my Friends called my grandpa
Grandpa Joe like me he didn't care RIP but those
were the days thank you for beautiful memories.




Maybe I will write about the stories of the
animals in my life that I had some day I had all kinds
but way to expensive to have any here where
I live the pet fee in these apt. is like 3hundred
and we have car insurance and other things to
pay and it cost just about that much to get the
food and everything to have a pet :(



but one day again we'll have one.




Thank you for sharing just give
her time to come to you allow her to know
that your animal is safe and mean no harm
we did this with Frosty Sheltie sheep dog RIP
but when we first got him poor guy was shaking
and when he knew he was safe he came out of his
shell bit by bit slowly and ended up being like my son
I still cry when I speak of him he was my mother and
father in laws dog but he was all of ours I even did a song
on him maybe some time I'll share it. .



when we are hurt ourselves we understand
when we put our shields up and won't open
up I did that for years with the pains I went
through with my father.



God bless. Benita

[therisa]

Thank you, Benita, for sharing your past four legged companions. Whenever anyone comes in, my apartment, Star is usually the first one, to greet them, after myself.

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

You're welcome. Thank you. awe she says hello that is precious my animals were friendly to kind visitors as well :) I Enjoyed reading was a lovely ode to your sweet Star and such a lovely name. God blessing. Benita

[therisa]

Thank you, very much, Benita.

[MomzillaNC]

A very touching tribute to your kitty.

[therisa]

Thank you, Momzilla. Star has done a lot, to help me, in my own healing. Just wish, I could take away her own pain memories.

[MomzillaNC]

You're welcome. Just keep patiently loving her.

[therisa]

I do, every day, I spent as much time, as she wants with me.