My Struggle

Body image and being transsexual.

How do I describe

The vitriol

I feel towards

My body.

The years

Of wanting to cut off

Certain parts.

Regardless

Of the consequences

To my body

Or health.

Being a stranger

Within a strange body

And no one sees it

But me.

The self-hatred

And betrayal of my body

Threaten to consume

My entire life

In a single action.

Even now

I must fight this

When I look below

And see

My male genital.

To do so

Would mean

I have lost

And they won.