The Disease

How I have been feeling, for the past two days.

Trying to cover myself

In the gentleness of my soul

But I don't feel

Or warrant

Such attention

For myself.

 

As the taint crawls

All over my body

With its malaise laden claws

Sinking deep

Into my soul.

 

Corrupting all

Which it touches

Without moving

Anywhere.

 

My defenses crumble

Like a piece of dried out cheddar

Under this insidious assault.

 

Leaving me

Vulnerable to

The coming darkness

And soul distress.

 

Knowing

All too soon

My contract

With the outer world

Will shrink

To the point

Of disappearing.

 

As I withdraw

Into myself

While the invasion

Lasts.

Feeling my anger

Turning inward

Becoming more destructive

With each passing day.

I lay

In this prison

Of mine.

Reviews

[Lyn Anderson]

This is probably one of the best I have read on this subject. Really powerful. Leaves a person drained, emotionally.
If lay is meant to be past tense it is correct as lay. If it is meant to be present it should be lie.

[therisa]

Thank you, KL. I'm not sure, how I had intended to use "lay/lie", as I writing about the past and the present, at the same time. Do you have any suggestion, to this? I would welcome your answer.

[Lyn Anderson]

If you put lay down it could potentially connote past and present at once.

[therisa]

Thank you, KL, for your answer.

[Lyn Anderson]

No problem.

[Relic]

Being lost in a world of anger is not a good place to be. It has been known to consume many and leaves its own little bruises. Well said.

[therisa]

Thank you, Relic, for your kind words. Yes, anger is a horrible place, to find oneself, in. For many, who suffer depression, they express it outward, while I suppress it, inwards. Think, this is part of the reason, my depressions tend to become very dark and suicidal.

[Relic]

When it gets to the point of being suicidal you need to call out for some help. Keep writing, even if its to yourself and not for posting.

[therisa]

I do that, with my writing, Relic. As for being suicidal, this holiday season will mark the 4th anniversary, since my last attempt. Sadly, when you reach the point of actually doing it, you don't think of anything else, except the act, itself.

[Relic]

I've heard that before. I'd/we would hate to see you die if it means anything to you, which I'm sure it does.

[therisa]

Thank you, Relic. It does.

[Angel Alli]

This is very powerful, and intense, and I really enjoyed reading it.

[therisa]

Thank you, Angel. Only wish, I didn't write poetry, like this.