Now Or Never

I hear her song

Calling to me

Like the Siren did.

 

Offering

Her impossible promise

My soul yearns for.

 

Each passing day

My resistance weakens

Under Her influence.

 

Taking the plunge

Of no return

In my transition

As a woman.

 

A decision

Not taken lightly

But reached

Over many months

Of soul searching.

 

Given my closing window

For any surgeries

Due to health reasons.

 

Rather die

Then life my life

In this male body

Until the end

Of my lifespan.

Author's Note

Originally written, September 9, 2014.

The simplest and cheapest form of SRS, for me, would be, an orchiectomy, which the surgeon removes my testes, as a day surgry procedure, for about $1,000 (Cdn). Right now, my body and voice are totally passable, as female. This will change all of my "M" to "F", on my personal documents, including a passport, if I had one.