Diabetes

Getting bad news on my diabetes.

Although

Invisible and soundless

A time bomb exist

Within my body

Ticking away.

 

Each second

Drawing me

Closer to death.

 

You express

Your sincere desire

For me

To live a long

And productive life

With my body whole.

 

But

I never expected

To see my 44th birthday

For various reasons.

 

Yet alone

Being celebrating

My 65th one

In 21 years time.

 

I know

The fate

Which awaits me

Having seen three love ones

Lost their battle for life

With this disease.

 

Given the possibility

My body may look

Like a First World War soldier.

 

Who's left

Without an arm

Or a leg

From the surgeon's blade.

 

Worse

Blinded for life

Or paralyzed

By a stroke.

 

I don't fear death

As some people do

But the other things

I do.

 

Like using a needle

To inject myself

Which is

One of my greatest fears

I have.

Author's Note

Today, I learned, I have to start using insulin, to control my diabetes.

Reviews

[Tina Louise UK]

I so wish you didn't have to go through this hun, I don't know anyone with diabetes so I have no clue how it effects someone. You are always in my thoughts x

[therisa]

Tia, left unchecked, it's a slow death sentence for a person. As it can be very painful and linging way to die.