Just Another Anxiety Attack

Being in crowded situation is, one of my triggers for anxiety/panic attacks, as a result of being bullied, in group situations.

Can feel

Your hot stinky breathe

Flowing down my neck

As you chase me

Through the urban jungle.

 

Always a step or two

Behind me

As I zigzag

Through the transit system.

 

Hoping to lay

A false trail

To confuse you

But no luck.

 

As I feel your presence

Gaining ground

Upon me.

 

Almost upon me

Tapping my shoulders

With your taloned claws

Ready to rip my soul

Into a thousand pieces

Before consuming me.

 

While

My poor heart

Is working overtime

As my pulse tops

The 140 bpm rate.

 

Threatening to leave

For a body

Less stressful

And warmer climes.

 

My body awashed

In a sea of sweat

Drenching my clothes

Coating everything

With a cold clammy shine.

 

Wondering

Would it be drier

To swim

In Lake Ontario

Right now.

 

Counting the minutes

Til I can bar you

From my presence

Behind the safety

Of my apartment door.

 

As the bus

Draws near

My stop.

Reviews

[Tinkerbellje]

Anxiety is horrible to have. You have portrayed it very well in this poem, its chases you down and doesnt leave you until you find your safe place. Very well written.

[therisa]

Thank you, Tinkerbellje. I hope, you never have to experience this, yourself.

[Tinkerbellje]

Unfortunately I did for awhile, I didn't like to leave my apartment. It still hate lots of people around me, but I am who I am. I'm not a fully social character anyway lol.

[therisa]

I understand, Tinkerbellje. I get similar periods, which I need someone to pull me, out of my apartment to get to my appointments.

[Tina Louise UK]

You did a great job at describing one in this...excellent piece hun :) x

[therisa]

Thank you, Tia, but it wasn't so.