Need To Grow Roots

my struggle to open up and trust people

A restless soul

I drift through life

Looking for

That emotional anchor

To ground me.

Scared

To reach out

And trust others

With a long history

Of betrayals.

Especially

By those

I have allowed in.

Knowing

Within me

I need to open up

And build more bridges

Not walls.

As my few close friends

And medical team are

Telling me.

Having frustrated

A previous therapist

With my inability to share

Which she got more aggressive

Worsening the situation

Between us.

But

I couldn't tell her

She was intimidating me

As fear kept 

My mouth shut.

Sighing

To myself

At the story

Of my life.