In No Man's Land

Trying to deal with the symptoms of PTSD.

There are days

Which I find myself

Seeking refuge

For my troubled soul

In the solitude of isolation.

Where my tears

Can flow unabated

Without having to endure

Those pity stares

From complete strangers.

As they avoid me

Like I am contagious.

Carrying a lethal disease

That is fatal

To anyone

Who comes near me.

Not understanding

The memories

Which flash 

In my mind

And the emotions

Associated with them.

Feeling my anger rise

As I struggle to comprehend

Why I am being triggered

This way.

Wondering

Will the pain

Ever end?

By being able 

To live a normal life

Without the past trauma

In it.

Author's Note

For more years than I can remember, I have been struggling with PTSD, in varying degrees. In the past 6 years, I have tried 7 different anti-anxiety/antidepressants to find an emotion equilibrium, without success. Even now, after a year being clean of meds, I am about to start my different medication.