Learning To Self-Believe

Please do not leave

Least not yet

For I have something

That I need to share.

In the past

I have stated

That I do not deserve

The description

Of a survivor.

Yet people

Who are very close

To me

Refuse to accept

My denial.

For you see

I have trouble

In believing

Myself.

Caught

In the viscous web

Of past abuse

And the emotional baggage

That comes along.

Trapped

Between the memories

Of the past

And living

In the here and now.

Avoiding the trap

Of illegal drugs

And alcohol

So many people use

To numb

Their pained souls.

Where

Each of my challenges

Is a victory over adversity

Which I could have

So easily

Laid down

And surrendered.

And yet

I cannot see this

With my own eyes.

When

Will I believe this

Within my heart

As the truth?

Placing

This doubting Thomasina

In her proper place.

Author's Note

Sparked by a conversation that my nurse and I had, earlier this morning, as part of my checking-in with her, after a lengthy absentee, on my part.

Reviews

[Brandon S. Whitten]

Sublime!

[therisa]

Thank you, Brandon.

[Forever Hidden]

This is beautiful, something that needs to be published.
I'm certain that almost every person can relate to this.

Thank you for sharing.

[therisa]

Thank you, Forever Hidden, for your kind and generous words.

[TL Boehm]

this one would fit nicely in the Spiritual Woman - I think. its all about self belief. Well penned.

[therisa]

Thank you, Tammy. Right now, I need a tonne of self-belief, as I explore some of the more painful events that I have suppressed.