Five And Counting

Marking my fifth anniversary of starting HRT.

Hey

April 27th

Step forward

Front and centre.

No

You are not

In any trouble.

Rather

The opposite is

True.

Here's a streamer

For you

To toss about.

That's right

And you thought

I forgot about you

And the importance

That you played

In my life.

Seriously

Five years ago

On this date

My journey took

A major step

Forward.

Beyond realizing

My true nature

Starting HRT is

A huge milestone.

In matching

My physical self

With my mental image

Separated since conception.

Still remember

The joyous feeling

Of holding the script

In my sweaty hands

Upon leaving the office.

Finally

Being able to stop

The poisonous Testosterone

From doing more damage

To my body.

Of those early days

Where finding the location

Of a toilet

Mattered more.

 

 

As my bladder sang

Must admit off key

"Please release me

And let me go"

Relentlessly.

As Spiro coursed

Through my body

Taking away Testosterone

In my urine.

My poor kidneys

Felt like they were

Processing Niagara Falls

As my body adjusted

To each new dose.

Smiling

At each returning lab result

With my Testosterone reading

Solidly female.

Alas

It took several months

For this joyous event

To be noticed.

Even now

I know

There are gg

With higher levels

Of Testosterone

Than I have.

Reviews

[SHEEMA HUQ]

An important piece, explaining the processes which you have undertaken, I really like the chosen structure of your poem, appreciate your predicaments, I felt this to be sad in some ways, and your real real life journey, thank you for sharing this, take care. Please don't be a stranger.

[therisa]

Thank you, Sheema. Too many people think that transitioning is simply means to take a pill and wake up, transformed into my true gender. Reality is, the entire process takes years and may never be completed. Please Sheema, don't be sad, but happy that the changes have occurred. :)