Accepting And Moving On

Etched deep

Within my soul

Are the words

Which I will

Never forget.

Of a lifetime

Long abandoned

Laying in ruins

Among love's debris.

Tell myself

Words don't hurt

But my heart

Still bleeds.

Soiling my hands

With your hatred

For realizing

A greater truth

About myself.

Long held

In denial

About my true self.

How I wanted

To ease my pain

Upon a razor's

Sharp blade

Numbing myself

Forever.

But refuse

To give you

Power over me

Like I had

For the first 36 years

Of my life.

Now

Seven years later

The bonds which bind

Have been removed

One painful strand

At a time.

Knowing

A void shall

Remain empty

Within my soul.

Where your love

Once was

Mom.

Only hope

That one day

You will realize

This deeper truth.

But

I won't stand still

Waiting.