A Plea

To overcome a reader's block.

Oh

Mistress of Words

Humbly

I beg of You.

Help me

During my moment

Of crisis.

For I have

Lost my way

In understanding

The written offerings

Placed forth

Upon your altar.

Have my sacrifices

Been met

With Your displeasure

Or insulted You

In any way.

Than

I apologize

Upon my knees

Asking for

Your forgiveness.

Seeking enlightenment

Where none exist

Before.

Reviews

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~ ah... such a heartfelt plea... so earnest and beautiful... ~ i'm sure the universe will respond and inspire you... but don't be too hard on yourself... the best advice i've ever received is "do what you can until you can do more"...

[therisa]

Sadly, Serah, I am always trying to do more than I able. Guess, its part of my past, needing to prove myself, better than everyone else. Having put down, so many times by other people.

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~ i hear you, sweet theresa... i was in such a horrid place because of my horribly humiliating past that i couldn't think without breaking down every few minutes... last april (2012) i gave myself one year to figure out what i wanted to do with my life... and this year...by the end of march... i had an answer and a proper plan... ~ it was the toughest phase of my life... and there were days when i was completely blank... and clueless and pained and under pressure... but i just stopped putting pressure on myself... i stopped judging myself... and that also helped me not judge others... finally, i am able to see that those who humiliate are more unfortunate than those they humiliate... seriously... not kidding... they are more needy...

[therisa]

Serah, I was bullied from kindergarten until the end of grade 10. Back when it was dismissed as boys being boys, by the society. Over the past 5 years, I have been making slow but steady progress, in my healing, while living on a disability pension, for my traumatic past. This is, why I write, to excise my ghosts, safely and peacefully.

therisa

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~ i understand... i've been through severe abuse since the age of 9 and till very recently... we're talking decades... there are elements of abuse that sometimes spring up even now... ~ i won't get into details but i really do know the anatomy of psychological battering very intimately... ~ i haven't stepped out of the apartment i live in since a little over 15 months... we write for the same reasons... i'm getting better too... slowly but surely... :)

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~ i really do believe that everyone who abused me is more needy than i could ever be...

[therisa]

Serah, you can get a glimpse of my past, in Years of Tears, which I have posted here. Just read, don't comment, please.

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~ right away...

[therisa]

By the way, it's a 4 parter.

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~ i loved every part... you're a beautiful poetess... thank you for sharing your work...

[therisa]

your welcome.