Quality Of One's Life

Excuse me

But I have

A favour to ask

Of you.

Am hesitant to ask

Due to the reaction

When this subject

Is discussed.

Concerning

Medications used

To treat people

With mental illness.

An area

Which I have

Very personal experience

Over the past five years

Of experimenting

With various anti-depressants.

Used

Like a Guinea pig

In a toxic experiment

By my doctors.

Forced to explore

Less conventional drugs

Due to my body's intolerance

To normally prescribed

Anti-depressants.

Hoping to find

A "magical cure"

For my chronic depression

And anxiety issues.

Each new drug

More toxic to my body

Than the previous one

Used.

While

Abating my depression

They wracked my body

With physical

And psychological

Pain.

Often

Trapping me

Within my apartment

For days on-end

Without release.

But

Those days

Are long over

For me.

In choosing

A quality of life

That allows me

A greater freedom

From my jail pills.

So

I ask you

Why cannot I

Have the same right

To refuse treatment

Like a cancer patient has?

Knowing the risks

My action will have

Upon my mental health

And mood swings.

Reviews

[SHEEMA HUQ]

this is interesting, sad to read my friend, thanks for sharing this process of dissary, and diffficulties here
all drugs have 'effects' don't day and with psychological problems, etc the symptoms can vary widely, I gather
Atleast you have the coherent abilites to think and consider this issue as coherently as possible, I hope that writing poetry is of great comfort

[therisa]

Thank you, Sheema, for your support. Sadly, my body is chemically very sensitive, thus have to be very careful, when taking any drug for the first time.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

everyone always wants to perscribe so we have to subscribe to prescriptions--
sometimes we are so overmedicated i wonder if just taking nothing would be the best thing.

Quality of life comes naturally i think.

jacob

[therisa]

Jacob, I have tried it, both ways, with very mixed results. But the last drug, really screwed up my body, badly.