July's Present

Hello

Old friend

I cannot say

It's a welcome visit

Again.

As

You find me

Struggling

With the anniversary

Of outing myself

To mom.

Thought

After six years

The emotional impact

Would have lessen

By now.

Yet

For some reason

This year's anniversary

Is hitting me

Harder than normal.

As if

I am mourning

The lost of mom

All over

Again.

Especially

Given the fact

Eighteen months ago

I opened myself

Up to her

Once more.

Laying

My tormented past

Bare to her.

In

The vain hope

Of renewing

The healing process

Between us.

Only

To learn

The bitter truth.

Mom

Will never

Fully accept

Or feel comfortable

With me.

As

You wrap your embrace

Around my grieving soul

Only wish

This was not so.

Author's Note

Originally written July 15, 2012.