Behind the collar

Behind the collar

We stood together in the dark
My arms around your neck
Your's at my waist,
Whispering sweet nothings to me
You titled your head first,
Now my heart was beating twice the average speed, 
but it wasn't because of our breaths mingling together
or because your full pink lips were only inches from mine
no,
It was because my heart knew the truth before my mindcomprehended it
That behind the collar hide a different man
a man who plays with me only in the dark 
but in the light of day preaches the word of god and points out the sins that i'm guilty of.
Never touching me the way you do in the dark,
in fear of others judgement; 
afraid that i will ruin your self presentation
or the ' i am a man of god' act
I should have known from the first time you held me
the way i hugged you with all my might never wanting to let you go 
only to have felt your one arm bullshit excuse of a hug in return
'What are your goals in life'?- i asked you
You replied- 'To show you how much you mean to me and more'
Here you filled me with a sense of hope I've only ever dreamed of feeling
How naive of me to think that you've never said these words before to another women.
A women for example whom patiently awaits your arrival at home.
For behind that collar hides a man who still plays the game deceiving so many then kicks them to the curb.
Well you did teach me one thing and for this i am thankful
Love is a game, you either play the game or get played,
Or you can simply take a seat on the bench.
I've kept the bench warm far to long and yet i still get played even if i'm not playing.
But I've had enough now and i'm ready to play the game.

Author's Note

Looks can be so deceiving. And i made the mistake of falling once, never will i fall again.

Reviews

[The Exiled Wolf]

The hate, confusion and the pain of being betrayed by one that you trusted a lot is intense here. Believe me, I know that feeling very well - too well that I wish that things didn't happen to me in the first place. "I still get played even if I'm not playing" is my favorite line here. To deal with this situation, my choice is often "move further away from the field" - to hide deeper, and deeper. Great presentation of emotions - and let's hope we will get over these s****y stuffs, someday.

[The Realist]

that was the one line that hit home for me....... and lets hope someday
thank you Exiled Wolf:)

[conversations with her ..]

my goodness...

whatta master piece.

[Ranger Kessel]

I relate. well written. wounds tend to heal.getting it out and stuff. even scabs heal if you take care of them.

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Star very sweet and end up at very bitter end. It s write very well. I can trust each the word and meaning in it. There is bad and good experience and sometimes they are mixed up. But one day there will be just one very clear and beautiful

[Tina Kline]

Life is complicated and hard. How to know when someone is sincere or just laying a game. We all can get caught u in someone elses game and it leaves is so scarred. Fantastic write about a painful subject.

[The Realist]

thank you tina kline :)

[Ted Kniffen]

Well written piece here, Realist. Once bitten, twice shy? Being played by someone you really care about is just s****y. But don't give up, love gives us many chances, and someone who really cares may be just around the corner.

[The Realist]

indeed love does give us many chances......thank you Ted Kniffen :)

[Dr. YumnaKay]

"Love is a game, you either play the game or get played,
Or you can simply take a seat on the bench."
Interesting thoughts here.. I think it's all about experiences.. I liked reading this.. Nicely expressed emotions here..

[The Realist]

thank you YumnaKay :)

[Dr. YumnaKay]

You are welcome! ☺