Existing

Existing

He's slowly fading away
deeper into the dark void 
He shouts my name, screaming, kicking and thrashing about,
arms outstretched towards me 
I try to save him i really do
But he's falling deeper now
growing smaller and smaller by the second
His face blurs through my teary face
If he dies you will die with him, my subconscious screams at me
but it was to late,
When reality hit me.
When i came to realise that it was not he who was falling, but me.
Deeper and deeper i fall into the void, arms outstretched towards him..
although who is he?
He is no one but from my own fantasy 
It was all imaginary
His face
His arms
His voice
His existence
Everything
The only thing that is real is that i'm falling deeper and deeper
I've lost my mind they told me,
I smile through my teary face, as i reach closer to death,
They were right, i did lose my mind, i listened to my mind and not my heart, so now ill pay the price;.....
With my life

Author's Note

Follow your heart even if your mind says differently....

Reviews

[Devious13]

i fought with what must have been a super power that was last min gifted tp me and when everyone including hmself was to tired and they sa he would of died had he not left when he did , thats all i ever wanted was for him to see how succsessfull and how being important to someone is , and out of undying love that to this day cant be replaced ,, i watched me turn from a hero to a zero n then when i lost my footing and was going down i was left right there to go through all the same but now alone , nobody worried if i never called or showed ,now better ans a man thats well , i cant even get a thanks for saving my life , nada no hello so i love this for more reasons then the obvious one great job

[Minus 2]

This was amazing! All your writings have certain emotions that just genuinely strangle my attention!

[The Realist]

why thank you minus 2 :) so very much

[npfd]

really liked the piece, sounds like we all lose our mind when it comes to love, intense

[The Realist]

Thank you npfd :)

[charlie]

I've been reading the bible regularly over the past 2 years or so, and the topic of ones heart comes up in quite various ways throughout. For instance, Proverbs 4 says: "Keep your heart with all vigilance, for from it flow the springs of life." but then Jeremiah 17 will say: "The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it? " ...
But for most of what is written about "heart", it seems evident that it must be pure and some hearts may even need to be broken before given a new one. I am including a link that you may find useful in considering the issue of "heart" https://www.openbible.info/topics/heart

I view heart and mind as not so very separate, and it is mind that governs the heart. That's my personal view - kind of like: did you ever see a horse riding on a jockey? Or does the jockey ride the horse... In this analogy, the heart is the horse and the jockey is mind. I personally can't relate to your author's note, ("Follow your heart even if your mind says differently....") and I don't endorse it as sound advice, either.

[olla]

in the next to the last line "to to mind" intent or typo..? heart and mind.. both can and do mislead.. the hope is that they don't both mislead at the same time.. thank heavens for the "gut" that can save us from the ultimate penalty.. if we listen..

[The Realist]

Thank you Olla for that.. yeah that was definitely not intended, thanks for informing me about that.

[olla]

you are very welcome..

[Patricia Stephmore]

Falling and falling but endlessly..... Waiting for the crash and death.... Knowing that no more hope is left....no one to blame and no one to hold on to
Your poetry has the darkest and deepest kind of meanings and I just can't stop reading!!!!! I love the way you write!!!!

[The Realist]

yes they are the deepest and darkest thoughts buried deep in my mind, i guess this is the only way to expose them to light, by writing poetry and letting others know the truth. i thank you Patricia for taking the time to read my poems. i also cannot wait to read more of yours.

[Patricia Stephmore]

Your most welcome :-)