not fair.

frustrated as hell.

 

I’m trying to be oh so precise.

And I’m trying to make this oh so clear.

I don’t know what else to say to you, honestly.

Makes me wonder how I could even think of myself the way I do.

If you think so much like a guy, how I could like you.

I repeat three words, so cliché, so rehearsed.

Over and over, with the same response.

I love you too.

Oh manda, you know I do.

You’re my favourite.

You’re the best.

No one can even compare

To you.

How can you even say those things?

How can you even pretend you feel the same?

Maybe it’s just because you don’t understand.

Maybe you think I’m saying them one way…

And therefore you can completely

Reciprocate

The feeling.

But you don’t get it.

No I really don’t think you understand it.

I try to tell you a little something about me I’ve just discovered, in discovering you.

Hoping it would be the hint

You needed to finally get

It.

But no.

You tell me it’s fine.

You say you don’t mind.

Oh you have tons of friends who are like that.

Tons of friends who feel the same way.

But they aren’t me.

They don’t feel the same way.

They don’t want you, the way I do.

I hate it.

I hate the feeling.

I hate how absent it makes you seem.

I hate myself for hating you in return.

And I hate myself for not being able to find a

Way.

Not being able to find the

Words.

Not being able to say and do and feel what hurts the most out of all those little feelings I have ever felt.

In my entire life.

Seventeen years can be an enternity.

If you've discovered what you've been

Waiting for.

I hate myself for not adding one more thought to the process.

I love you.

No,

I am in love

with you.

Reviews

[Manda]

WOW! I totally understand it! You write so wonderfully. You write how you feel and by creating that you have created an element of a story. I love the words you chose to use. The way you described how you felt. It was almost as if I was there being you. You truly have the potential of a writer and with that said you should be quite happy. Success is too come in your near future. I hope you the best with what ever it is and that everything works out =) once again way a wonderful job you have done here with this piece =) please continue on with other writing in the future. I look forward to reading more. Hope my review was good for you and made you put a smile on your little face. Lol I know the feeling. And what a great feeling it is. I hope you love mine as much as I loved yours ! =)

good job once more

[lookitup]

Wow. You write with a really intense clarity! I completely, totally, utterly feel your emotion in this!!!!