I am Alone

Summer 2015

I am alone;
Alone inside my head with thoughts and struggles ricocheting around with no one to catch them, and no escape.

Escape seems impossible after so many failures, and I fall asleep every night hopeless; Hopeless yet again in my endeavor to find someone;
Someone to talk to, To share with, to sit beside, to throw my anxieties on, to love.

Love destroys me again as the ground on which I built it collapses underneath, although it seemed to welcome me at first.

First we meet, and during that first second, I know that something amazing will happen, .

Second we talk, and after a trust is formed, I am in constant wonder of what is to happen next.
Next I share;
Share things I don't tell anybody else, and I have a close friend at last.

Last, I extend my love, but because I was wrong, she pushed me away;
Away to my mind, where I will be alone;
Alone again.

Author's Note

It's a bit rough because I was trying really hard to begin each sentence with the last word of he previous.