Never After

Written January 9, 2021.

You said that I'm delusional

Incapable of change

Four years for you, a lifetime felt

Was only spent in vain

Of all the things you said to me

The one that hurt the most

You said you didn't hate me

But "pretty f*****g close"

I know I can't take back

The things I've said and done

You've never ceased to remind me

That I'm the broken one

For that I'll take the blame, my love

I never claimed perfection

My demons always dragging me

In your opposite direction

The writing on the walls

Bleeding down around us

A promise to myself was made

The day you slammed the door shut

You said I didn't love you

But how can that be true?

Four years for me, forever after

Was meant to be with you.