It Never Ends

The memories.. the madness... it all came up to me now. The regret, the misery.. it's all I felt. But most of all... is just insanity in my head. Swirling up on me after the event.

Xianne's Point Of View "POV"

W-what have I done?! 

I looked at him deep in those dying eyes as the rain hits my back hard with the guilt I've felt. Why him?!

The police sirens echoed in the distance as they tried to search for us in our inevitable crimes we've made in the past.

I could've ever ignored it instead.. I tried to save them all.

Now's just the down fall. 

He coughed up and he looked at me. His eyes glowing red but now fading to gray like an overcast sky. 

"D-don't leave me! Please, I beg you! I can't do this alone! I can't be sent to them!! Please get up!!" I cried as I shook him.

He smirked, "I have to. You could never save them. You just have to turn you life around."

We looked at the distance to see the cops getting closer to us.

"Don't fear, Xianne. It's all over now. Don't worry about them. They'll help you.. they'll fix you. Just submit instead of coming with me." He said calmly with the acceptance of his expiry. 

"You're coming with us!"

The cops found us and he's just chuckling, "Goodbye.. for now." 

I screamed as I thrashed about for them to let go of me but they're just too strong!

I can't just leave him here! I just can't! There has got to be another way for them to believe me! I've had enough!!

They then injected me with what looks to be Propofol and my thrashing became softer.. I felt like I'm about to faint... until I could only feel numbness.

I woke up to see myself strapped in a straitjacket and I'm in a dimly lit white room with pillows and a rusty iron door. I'm in the asylum..

I could never believe this is happening!

I also realized I was gagged and I struggled to even sit up. I'm just here.. in empty silence.

It felt deafening, I couldn't think straight and I couldn't drift in peace. 

I'm just here. Feeling defeated. 

All I could do is to just look back.. If I couldn't live it.. I could just recollect all of it as a dream..